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Friday, September 11

Sick Today :(

i was feeling horrible this morning, and dont feel my best right now either. this is me laying on the couch this morning feeling so out of it. my throat was hurting, my head was hurting, stomach hurting, just everything. i missed the bus because i didnt feel like getting up and my knee was bothering me a little, i just really didnt wanna go to school. my mom dragged me out of the house and got me into the car then on the way to school she stopped at ameristop. i was still crying and could hardly stop, every two seconds i felt like i was gonna puke. she drags me in and buys crackers then tells me to eat them and that it would make me feel better. you dont give a kid with a sore throat something crunchy...it scratched up my throat. then she said to suck on it to make it soft first..but just the taste of a soggy cracker made me throw up in my mouth. just my luck, i only throw up stomach acid and it burns all the cuts in my throat and it felt horrible. i was in alot of pain.
then we get to school and she shoves me out of the car and leaves. i end up walking into school crying and feeling like i'm gonna throw up everywhere. first person i see is Zach, who gives me a big hug and says he hopes i'll feel better. everyone in the hallway [which wasnt many people because i was late] kept asking me if i was alright. (DID I LOOK ALRIGHT? NO!) i said i was fine or that i didnt feel good. when i got to advisory everyone stared at me like i was a freak...another reason i didnt wanna go to school, i get embarrassed easily and dont like alot of personal attention like that. to make matters worse Mrs.Monteith drags me out into the hallway and talks to me.
i cried into first block but still managed to get my PowerPoint on Hippocampus kuda done.
then i cried for a second in the next class and went to the nurse after that.
of course the nurse was at lunch so i went to the nurse when my lunch bell started. i got permission to go home but my mom refused to pick me up so i had to walk. i called my grandma on the way to see if she could get me but she didnt answer, and i was feeling horrible. she was going to get gas i think and she saw me and picked me up. as soon as i got home i went to sleep.
when i woke up, i was happy to see an @reply on twitter from my favorite blogger, (@sweetmangoLOVE) saying that she hoped i would feel better soon. i felt so special :) but i was still sick, haha. i took a picture of myself to see what i looked like...
and got that. i had never actually seen my make up run before so it interested me. haha. i did some work for credit recovery online to catch up a little, but no where near done. i dont like doing schoolwork so i kinda stopped..
to tell you the truth, im actually surprised at how many people asked me if i was ok today, its usually only like 4 but today it was about 11. i'm not native to that, but it was different. hopefully i'll feel better soon. meanwhile, i have yogurt to eat...since its the only thing that doesn't hurt to swallow, haha

Photography - Silhouettes, Windows and Sunrise

this isnt really edited either! i didnt even crop it  just barely increased the saturation. this was a horrible morning but the view of the sunrise from my front yard was gorgeous. between the tears i took this. i love how the tree is like silhouette and you can see the clouds reflecting on the windows

Photography - Seen from the window, but its better in the clear

i was at Frisch's yesterday with my boyfriend and his parents and i couldnt stop looking outside. i just thought the sunset looked so pretty out...of course i wanted to take a picture of it but i didnt say anything cuz i didnt want to be a bother, and cuz his parents were there. After me and Nicko were done eating we went outside and he said he remembered me saying something a couple weeks ago about how i thought the sky was pretty and told me to take a picture, so i did and it turned out really nice :) i didnt even edit it, its only cropped.

Photo Collection - Creature of the night

doesn't this picture kinda remind you of Type O Negative? maybe because i was listening to them as i edited all of these, i took them last night...Enjoy!

Wednesday, September 9

my favorite song at the moment,

one of the things about me and music, is that i pretty much tune out the actual music half the time and just listen to the lyrics. usually, if i don't like the lyrics to a song i wont even bother to listen to it. Well, here is my favorite song at the moment- No leaf clover by Metallica. i love the lyrics and the symphony they used with the song...here's a video and the lyrics, maybe you'll like it too, ya never know.


And it feels right this time
On this crash course we're in the big time
Pay no mind to the distant thunder
Beauty fills his head with wonder, boy....

Says it feels right this time
Turn around, found new high lights
Good day to be alive Sir
Good day to be alive, he said.....

Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
is just a freight train coming your way
Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
is just the freight train coming your way

Don't it feel right like this
All the pieces fall to his wish
Suck up for that quick reward boy
Suck up for that quick reward they said.....

Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
is just a freight train coming your way
Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
is just the freight train coming your way......
It's coming your way
It's coming your way......
Here comes

Yeah, Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
Is just a freight train coming your way.... Yeah...
Then it comes to be, Yeah...
Then it comes to be, Yeah...
Then it comes to be, Yeah...
Then it comes to be, Yeah...
Then it comes to be, Yeah...
Then it comes to be, Yeah...
Then it comes to be, Yeah...
Then it comes to be, Yeah!

Experimenting with a new style...

lately i got into drawing simple fairies as you've seen in some earlier posts...now today, i ended up making these characters, i guess you'd call them. they're different than my other drawings in a way...it's kind of like my usual faceless people but now they have eyes and noses...i don't know how i came up with this but i kinda like it. and i noticed something about alot of my art...they all have my nose haha, i guess thats how i show myself through my art or somthing. well the first drawing (edited and unedited) is actually the character Karina from my story. Here are my experiments...hope you like them!

Drawing - Waiting



Drawing - Leafbreeze







Tuesday, September 8

Lyrics - Forget

what did i do?
how'd i lose you?
the best is all i gave it
i tried so hard to save it
-
but i was in a cage and trapped in
i couldnt figure out what happened
those were your arms i was wrapped in
now im the sh*t hole you just crapped in
-
for 8 long months you heard me screamin (x2)
for 8 long months i saw you leavin(x2)
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so just go on with your girl,
forget i was here
so just go on with your girl,
forget i was even here
-
you wiped my tears away
you even said sorry
you were my crutch
i loved you so much
-
you stuck a knife in my heart
then i didnt feel so smart
is this some kind of sick art?
i should have known from the start
-
for 8 long months you heard me screamin (x2)
for 8 long months i saw you leavin(x2)
-
so just go on with your girl,
forget i was here
so just go on with your girl,
forget i was even here
-
yea, im singin about you
can you hear me? (you cant)
i'm in the air around you
can you feel me? (you cant)
i'm standing right in front of you
can you see me? (you cant)
-
forget me
completely
delete me
from your memory
kill me
already
can't you see me
running
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so just go on with your girl,
forget i was here
so just go on with your girl,
forget i was even here (x2)
so just go on with your girl,
forget you saw me bare
so just go on with your girl,
forget that i care
so just go on with your girl,
don't run your fingers through my hair
so just go on with your girl,
what you did wasnt fair
-
what did i do?
how'd i lose you?
the best is all i gave it
i tried so hard to save it...

Drawing - Untitled

Drawing - Cradled in Air

Drawing - Faceless


Drawing - Weeping Fairy

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