:D this is cute haha

happy birthday nicko :D

it's nick's birthday ^_^

i took this when he wasnt looking...

but he caught me xD

my baby's birthday is today :) he said he hates his birthday though...i don't really know why but he does. i didn't want him to have a miserable day though :( i wanted him to have a good day ^_^

so i did something super cute!

i made him heart-shaped pancakes~

they were pink ^_^ then put red sugar sprinkles on top to decorate~

i put my laptop and some syrup in my bag

and got to his house at 9AM...

he looked so surprised when i got there and so happy!

his face was red for a second and made me really happy :)

i stayed over for a little and we took some pictures on webcam~

i love that last pic <333 my new fav =)

and you know how i said if i saw him yesterday my day would be perfect??

i saw him yesterday ^_^

he's so cute! more pictures!

these are actually screenshots from a video i made that i'll upload very soon to my vlog :)

i love us <33 we're so silly~

we're supposed to eat at the chinese buffet today too :)

can't wait!! ttyl ♥

i am having a great day :D

the orchestra concert went very well! i actually liked it 

they did Carol Of The Bells and then the Show Choir preformed and did great 

props to all of you guys 

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today in FMP, my day was made :)

one of the students i mentor, her name is Kristen, gave me a Christmas card!

right when i came into class she handed to me

my reaction:  ...for me?

she nodded  it made me really happy

i got a rice crispie too :) one of my favorites 

it really made my day better that someone actually thought of me..

sometimes i cant really tell the impact i make on people until they show me,

and then i feel really special :)

Kristen, if you read this, thank you so much!!!

now if i actually get up the courage to go to nick's then my day will be perfect ^_^

gonna go try to doodle now, ttyl ♥

m o w ?

quick note* my blog can now be viewed mobile!

kinda in a down-sh mood at the moment 

i had 4 different bad dreams @_@ so i was not happy at all 

2 pissed me off, then the other 2 made me sad

and they went in a checkered pattern...

i woke up super stressed and sad and didn't feel like going to school + feeling sick

blehhh (berry does not approve!!)

 but nicko cheered me up 

just a "hey baby" in the morning can cheer me up a whole day

crazy right? ♥

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random edit inspired by Love Like Winter by AFI
that song is awesome i have always loved it ♥

well an update on the modelling thing, i got in!

the bad new...it costs alot.

you know how i talked about that i was going to start dance again and that my cell gets turned off after this month?

well paying for a cell phone, 12 dance classes +bus fare costs LESS than one month of modelling classes!

which is a lot :( i would have to choose between cell, dance and sometimes lunch/breakfast OR modelling.

i choose dance.

i know i want to model soooooo bad :( but i cant do it...

with no phone, me and nick would have a hard time together...

my family is already low on money and i don't have a job yet,

and i love dance, always have and i already know i'm good at that

i don't know if modelling would be good for me or take me anywhere, so i don't want to put in money i don't really have and risk my relationship over something i might not even be able to pursue.

if i had a job, i would try it out because i would be able to help pay

so maybe i'll try again when i get one and see how it goes...

but for now, i'm gonna start dance and get a new phone at the end of the month

that is what i need right now.

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such angry thoughts right now >_<

i just figured out how much i hate that girl i'm jealous of!!,

because when i think about it, even when she's not being mentioned she's still causing a problem

because in one of nick's recent posts i was re-reading, he talks about past situations that bother him

which is what starts our arguments...

i don't do anything wrong, but because of something SHE did before, he gets mad at ME!

which makes me want to wish her death -_______-+

it really makes me sad that i'm good girlfriend and i know i am, but he still thinks about the past problems that i have nothing to do with and like...thinks i'm going to do the same thing

i love you Nick stop thinking about what she did and know that you have no worries with me.

because i will treat you like the beautiful person you are and you know i wont do anything to ruin that.

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today there is an orchestra concert during school

i don't wanna go :/ i don't really like the songs they play...

i love classical music (i definately blame ballet for that one)

but i hate that they play the same songs every year -_-

i get bored so fast with that...you know?

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ugh i am so bored and sick @_@

i feel like i'm gonna throw up on everything

blehh...once again i do not approve!

but i don't wanna go home cuz then i cant leave today

and i'm gonna go attack nick at his house xD

whether he wants me to or not because i havent seen him in god damn month!!!!

and i miss him  alot 

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i really need to make some dividers, these dashes just aint doin it!!!

.....well i'm gonna go throw up now haha

i'll blog again later when i doodle again ^_^'

heh heh... well... see ya :D

*pukes everywhere*

♥

i cant wait till our oldschool date ♥

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today we are off school....bout a half foot of snow on the ground and still snowin a ltitle bit still ~

was on the phone talking with Nicko earlier 

he's a cutieee  and his voice makes me happy 

all i've been doing today:

 playing sims

 eating pizza rolls

 talking to nick

 singing / listening to music

 being really cold ❅

i also posted some of my [ugly] baby pics earlier xD

but pretty please don't laugh at my uglyness~

i was fat and looked like a boy 

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lately i've been wanting to create my own blogskin...

i really want a 3 column layout >_>

i'm so scared to chang my layout though cuz i've had the same one since i started 

mehh...i dont know >_> i'm scared.... i might get it though...

gosh that song has been so stuck in my head!!

Boomshake by Far East Movement...ahhh i love it 

my favorite song by them~

last night i found out nick took my beefee quiz 

he got everything right  ya baby 

i knew he would get it right tho :P

i think 2 other people have taken it now, one person didn't leave thier name 

i was vewy sad  *sniff sniff* lol

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theme song of the day:

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