Kaomoji Emoticons!

i've been thinking of making some of my own...this is my attempt lol

KaoMoji

happy:

glad:

wink:

squeal:

confused:

HUH?!:

sad:

crying:

mad:

frustrated:

smacking yourself:

berry emotikitty

        

[will make more soon]

emotibunny

        

[will make more soon]

emotimouse

        

[will make more soon]

tell m what you think and credit me if you use them ^_^

thanks!!

me and Nick are SOOO cool!

XD read it from the bottom up...

Favorite Lyrics..

random lyrics i really like, from different songs and what not
oh, shut up, we all have them lol

"It's a long walk,
And the music is loud.
She sees an old friend,
And she walks through the crowd.
Puts on her best smile,
But underneath it she's a broken girl."
-She Wil Always Be A Broken Girl
by She Wants Revenge

"She's fading away
Away from this world
Drifting like a feather
She's not like the other girls
She lives in the clouds
She talks to the birds
Hopeless little one
She's not like the other girls (I know)
No more shame, she has felt too much pain, in her life
In her mind she's repeating the words
All the love you put out will return to you"
-Not Like The Other Girls
by The Rasmus

"No te vayas, no te vayas
Oye negrita mira, no te rajes
De lunes a viernes tienes mi amor
Déjame el sábado a mi que es mejor
Oye mi negra no me castigues más
Porque allá afuera sin ti no tengo paz
(Don't go, don't go, listen baby, watch
From Monday to Friday you have my love
Give Saturday to me and you'll be better off
Listen baby, don't punish me anymore
Without you, out there I have no peace)"
-La Tortura
by Shakira

"Beautiful - yet dangerous

thermogenic luminous
like a moth drawn to a flame - i'm the same
all cremated equally"
-Pyretta Blaze
by Type O Negative

"le pido al cielo sólo un deseo
que en tus ojos yo pueda vivir
he recorrido ya el mundo entero
y una cosa te vengo a decir
viajé de bahrein hasta beirut
fuí desde el norte hasta el polo sur
y no encontré ojos así
como los que tienes tú
(My one desire, all I aspire
is in your eyes, forever to live
travelled all over crossed lands and oceans
there is nothing that I wouldn't give
Came from bahrein, got to beirut
looking for someone comparing to you
tearing down windows and doors
and I could not find eyes like yours)"
-Ojos Asi
by Shakira

"And we lay, we lay together just not

Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)"
-makedamnsure
by Taking Back Sunday

Just like the moon does
We rise'n'shine'n'fall
Over you that I rise'n'shine'n'crawl
Victims aren't we all"
-Brandon Lee
by The 69 Eyes

"We're like two fingers of the same hand
the hand of fate writing on the sand"
-Betty Blue
by The 69 Eyes

"I'd give it all away
just to have somewhere
to go to.
'give it all away
to have someone to
come home to."
-My December
by Linkin Park

"in your eyes i'm picture perfect"
-Picture Perfect
by 10 Years

"don't wanna see you cryin'
little angel on my shoulder.
i wanna see you flyin
back to heaven where you belong"
-Angel On My Shoulder
by The 69 Eyes

"Hanging on by a thread,
the child is screaming
while holding his breath.
how long will you scream at the walls
for someone to listen?
surrender your right to resolve,
'cause no one will listen"
-Scream At The Walls
by 10 Years

will probably post more later :)

thats definately not all of it

took some pictures in animal care! again..

the cute lizard <3

the ferrets!! oscar and grandpa =^_^=

Aquarius:

You are happy today when others want to work or play with you.

Luckily, you should have ample opportunity to engage in a variety of group activities,

 even if you must sacrifice a bit of freedom to make it happen.

But don't forget about your own needs

because personal fulfillment is also crucial to your overall sense of well-being.

The trick is to find a sensible balance between individual and social expression.

yeah, that sounds about right.

like the first part esecially...

because i want to do something extra-curricular

but im afraid it will take away all of my freedom

which i dont have much of anyway..

im not entirely sure what "social expression" means though,

i know individual expression is expressing yourself

but what about social?

is that how you express others?

how you express yourself to others??

i'm confused about that a little bit...

but anyways, yesterday sucked a little.

but i got a lot of feelings out..

my knuckles are a bit raw and im not having the best dreams

i found myself stuttering, breathing hard, and cursing alot

which i dont usually do...

i took it all out on dance to try and get myself to feel better

it worked a little

i've choreographed a dance to "Petite Love" by Smile.DK

and i plan on no one EVER seeing it :)

bored with the camera..

took the first picture with the flash on...

i look odd and uninhibited

yoko nai [lol]

the rest are with no flash

(click to make bigger if you must)

(↑only nick's :P i love him ♥)

↑↑ooo look at those eyes!!

↑ like that one hehe

(↑big smile for nick again!!)

↑↑really like that one!!

sorry i was bored!

not so pretty but i dont car XD

"...do i have to make a list about that too?" ←silly Nicko <3

Aquarius:

"Even if you have recently felt resistance in your path,

your true friends are finally ready to come to your aid.

And it may be just in time, for you might consider quitting today.

You can still see the possibilities,

but you just don't know if your well of energy is deep enough to keep going for much longer.

At least, give it a few more days before walking away.

It's likely your confidence will return

and you will feel refreshed and ready to take on the world."

that's my horoscope today...once again, it makes sense

it kinda makes sense more for last night, but it still made sense anyway.

sometimes, i have these moments where i think too much

i like my life, but i cant seem to like myself at all

there's not even one thing i like about myself.

well, as soon as Nick saw that, he called me

i remember him saying 

"why dont you like yourself? ...do i have to make a list about that too?"

i said no and laughed, he's so silly

well hearing his voice automatically made me blush

(one of the good things about talking on the phone is that he cant see it XD)

he's got the cutest voice to me

talking to him always cheers me up

i was bored and looked up our love horoscope...

it was just like i knew it would be!!

and i guess i put my 2 cents in XD

↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓

Aquarius and Saggitarius

Aquarius is innovative and unique.

(i guess i am different XD)

Aquarius is usually attracted to people who share their core beliefs,

 as long as Aquarius believes them to be intelligent,

open-minded, compassionate and well-intentioned.

(and he is!! ♥) 

When Aquarius meets a Sagittarius,

 they are instantly attracted to them on a mental level.

(its true! ♥ i new i loved him the first time i looked in his eyes ♥)

 With a Sagittarius, Aquarius will have a solid friendship

(he is my best friend ^_^)

and remain loyal through thick and thin.

(and he loves my loyalty!!)

Since Sagittarius is not a particularly emotionally-charged person,

 Aquarius tends to relate to others through rational thought... and rationally,

Sagittarius scores enough points to win Aquarius' heart.

soooo true!♥

well, since im out sick today, i'm gonna work on my online class.

and try to catch up on work...maybe make some pixels or something

idk, but first think on my list...

is to eat XD

kitty is sick :( again :(

Today, i got a vaccine for the H1N1 flu...well, my momm signed me up for the mist instead of the shot......and i had a raw spot in my nose. plus, thy're basically spraying the live virus up your nose and telling you to breath which puts it in your lungs. BAD IDEA. i wish i would have gotten the shot.
within minutes of the nasal spray, i was already sick. my friend Kasey is a witness, she was sitting with me in the auditorium at school. we had to stay for 15 minutes to check for reactions...i had a reaction in probably less than 5. i was surprised it affected me at all because i've got a pretty gnarly immune system, but it came quick (haha thats what she said!! *cough cough* anywayz...) i went to the nurse and there were piles of people in there. most of the people who got sick had the mist just like i did, a couple people got sick from the shot. a girl in my psychology class broke out in hives and her hand stiffened up. my symptoms were pretty stupid.
headache, fatigue, upset stomach, dizzyness, sleepyness, all that jazz...
pretty annoying stuff, i didnt like it, especially after it got worse

i finally went home, after waiting about an hour, and i fell asleep for about an hour. i woke up and as soon as i tried to walk, i fell on my but because i was too weak, and when i tried to give up again, my stupid knee went out. and no one was home so i had to pop in back into place and try to get up again -_-  yoko nai and not fun.

now my throat hurts and i tried to eat toast...heh heh, toast

know what toast does?

IT SCRATCHES THE @#%! OUT OF YOUR THROAT!

bad idea, lol

i'm on my 6th cup of coffee, and i keep falling asleep out of nowhere.

Nicko thinks my random sleeping is cute XD

earlier he sent me "Muah!"

i said "muuuah! i wish i could kiss you in real life but i'm sick :("

he said "lol kitty unlike some ppl idc if ur sick i'll still kiss u"

some may call it unsanitary...i call it adorable!

i know im strange... you guys can get over it :P

hehe

he's on my mind...♥

the picture says it all...

if you click on this one↓ it'll get bigger and there' words in the heart

so yea...i like my socks lol

okay, well while i'm here i'll tell you something that happened today i thought was funny.

i'm apparently a homosexual male. XD

okay, so i'm at the doctors right? im sittin in a seat over by the corner across from the door. this girl comes in and looks at me. her and her mom are at the front desk and she keeps looking back at me. i picked up a gameinformer and started reading. when they came back from the desk, the girl sat right next to me. i just kept reading. she giggled and i looked over and she was smiling at me. i looked away again and she said "hey!!" i said hi back. "whats up?" she says, i said i was reading...she asked the obvious. she asked what i like to do and i said i was into art. "oooh, so you're the sweet sensitive type, thats cool! hehe!" i was confused. she asked if i played any instruments and i told her i played guitar, bass and piano. "omg thats so cool!! you should play for me sometime" but i wasnt confused after she said "so...do you have a girlfriend?" i said no but didn't get to finish my sentence. 

she goes "aww, why not? you're such a cute guy" i was no longer confused...she thought i was a dude! i was wearing an army-style jacket and no make-up, loose jeans and my old Vans. i don't think i looked like a boy but i guess i did and apparently im a cute guy?

i told her i had a boyfriend and she was like "omg ur gay?! i would have never even guessed that!"

i wanted to shoot myself in the head XD

i was like sure lol "if you ever change ur mind and want a girl, u want my number?" i said no lol

i went over to get a drink of water and i come back and there's a new contact in my phone labled as "the cutie from the doctors (: (: <333" i looked at her then just looked away.

LOLZ @ HER

my horoscope made sense again...

Aquarius:

Pie-in-the-sky thinking can tempt you to reach farther than usual,
but it can also be quite frustrating
as it sets you up for disappointment and discouragement.

 You can outsmart negativity today if you decide early on

that knowing what's happening is always better than ignorance
-- even if you're standing in a dark place.
Make a realistic assessment,
change your course if necessary and move on.

and that's exactly what i did.

i moved on. i was tired of being sad, i listened to a song this morning early on and got my emotions back, it ,ad e,e remember how he felt about me and i outsmarted negativity. i figured out earlier that i shouldnt ignore the problem again and i told him how i felt. he said he was really sorry and would make sure it didnt happen anymore :)


this is what i did in Psychology instead of work↓↓
2 random notes to nick :) i scanned it onto my computer

i guess i just think about him all day..

and i guess i cant help it ♥

in other news:

i had quite the adventure with the scary doctor. and i feel entirely violated, i might add. XD

puffy eyed girl,

"she fading away, away from this world,

drifting like a feather,

she's not like the other girls...

she lives in the clouds and talks to the birds,

hopeless little one,

she's not like the other girls..."

-The Rasmus

me and my sister got in a fight earlier today in front of everyone at church and my mom told me to get the hell out in front of everyone...it wasnt even my fault which she admitted later.

can you see how puffy my eyes were? click the picture to enlarge.
what happened: i used to always joke to the other people at church about my sister being the same size as me...because she was. and for a minute she was taller (she's almost 13 and i'll soon be 17) and most people thought it was ironic or funny. today one of the girls in our class noticed that i had grown (SHOCKER!?) i was actually taller than my sister by about an inch, so i got really happy because i've always wanted to be tall and it gave me a little hope...well tehya decided that she didnt like that she was shorter than me and pushed me and ran away really mad so of course i followed her to try and see what was wrong. she kept telling me to stop following her and i told her that i'll go away if she answered me because i seriously had no idea what i did to upset her, i was just happy that i grew. she goes to my mom and pulls a little sister and says i was badgering her and making fun of her but i wasnt! she said she didnt like that i pointed out that she was short but i wasnt even the one to point it out...she turned the whole situation around to make it seem like i was attacking her, of course my mom smacked me in the face and said to stop raising my voice but i was speaking normal tone, tehya kept yelling at me and saying she hates me and that she wishes she had a brother instead...making me feel even more worthless than i already felt in the first place. my mom told me to get the hell out and literally pushed me from The Sactuary all the way out the front doors and i stood outside and waited for them about 30 minutes...it was freezing outside.. i didnt mean to do anything and i already hadnt been doing so well and that last thing pushed me to my breaking point and i cried. This lady who i had seen around church was walking with her family but she saw me and stopped and talked to me and got me to stop crying. she reassured me that even though i didnt do anything and no matter how much my sister will say she hated me she'll always still love me even if it doesnt seem that way, but she said it in a way that i could understand...i stopped crying and actually cracked a smile, she had to get back to her family so she gave me a hug and left.  I don't remember your name but thank you so much. i wish there were more people like that in the world, but i guess you only find Angels every once in a while. 


of course after the car ride i was a little more shook up, because the whole argument broke out again, but my mom finally got the story straight and i wasnt the one to blame and she apologized to me...i accepted it reluctantly. a little after i got home, my friend Dylan dragged me out of my house and tried to cheer me up. besides that it was freezing and we were bored basically the whole time, there were a few funny moments and i met alot of new people. i'm not sure if i'll ever see them again (lol) but they were all really nice and i felt like i already knew them.



in other news:
this was my horoscope today:

Aquarius:

You don't mind it when others are clear about their needs,

but you aren't as supportive if they act selfishly.

You may attempt to maintain a positive attitude today,

but someone can push you too hard,

provoking you to respond with forceful words.

Remember, you don't have to sink to conflict.

You can deflect aggression by simply holding to your position confidently and waiting things out.

that sounds just like how i've been thinking...

and basically what happened...

i'm thinking i should have looked at my horoscope before church instead of now.

i usually don't believe horoscopes, i just look at them for fun

but this one was right on the dot...

could have been like a warning or something

I COULD HAVE USED THAT!!

jeez..lol

 
and i also have a doctors appointment tommorow and im scared, lol

Photograpy - An Eerie December Night

picture paradox.

(i made it into a kitty picture XD) regardless of the smiling picture, i obviously didnt take that today, (not only is it in another post a few days ago, but) i'm having a horrible weekend. i guess last night my boyfriend's friend was messin with my head and i got really sad...i turned off my phone after i said "whatever makes you happy..." so you can take a wild guess at what was said. even worse i was at my friend's house, sitting there crying. despite thier efforts to make me happy, i just asked to be taken home, so i left and went home. i got in the house to see that the food i put in the refrigerator had been eaten and my sister was conviently placed on the couch so that i couldnt get to the TV or my bass. it was late so i couldnt get on the computer, and i didnt really want to. i went to my room and just kept on with what i was doing. i tried to listen to music, but they were all love songs, since thats what i like to listen to...but i didnt wanna hear it. i turned off the cd player, turned off the light, took 7 tylenol and drank 4 bottles of water...my headache never left, i still have it. i turned my phone back on in the middle of the night maybe around 2 or something but i dropped it under the bed, so when i picked it up i just turned it off again, i knew i hit a few buttons and was afraid i had possibly called someone and i didn't want to find out if i had or not, nor did i want someone to call me because if i answered they wouldnt be able to understand me, and if i didnt i would get a voicemail which im always reluctant to check. i lied on my bed in the dark not thinking about anything, Mimi was crawling across my hands(and i know you don't know who that is but i dont think im ready to tell...) the last time i saw looking at the clock was 7:26 am, then i was so exhausted and my head hurt so bad i was just knocked out. i had an entirely horrible and explicit dream that im not going to take the time to type out - especially not in detail - and i woke up sad again, hoping to wake up happy. i went back to sleep, then i woke up 10 minutes later. i had another nightmare. i looked up and there was 70 hovering over me (and i know you don't know who that is but i dont think im ready to tell...) all i hear is what the voices feed to me...my mom and sister go to my granma's every morning so they werent there and it was about 8:00 am. i woke up to a "Tht wasnt me" then an "i love you" then "..?" (as a reply to my accidental button pressing around 2) i fell asleep again then woke up at almost 9 and i see "Kitty really.." and on twitter he said "I love Asberry Ann Quinones!" i stared at the phone screen for a while then finally said back "i love Nicholas Scott Mutters :)" he replied "o my god thank god... i was about to cry last night" i told him i actually did cry, but he already knew. i dont think he knew for how long, though. "i no babygirl, im so so so sorry.." he said, and i told him its alright because im getting used to it. something very similar to this happened to me before, and i hate the way it makes me feel...we tried to make conversation but when asked what he was up to, he said he was sitting with his firend..and i didn't really want to know anything else...so far all of his friends i've met are nice to me except him. but thats the one who he talks to the most :( i almost feel like i have to compete with him sometimes...i dont really know what to do, i always let it slide and just forgive him. it's the best thing to do anyways, nothing would come from confronting the issue. its something in Psychology i learned is called conditioning, just as you condition for sports your brain conditions as well. there are different types of conditioning and this is an example of one, i'm getting used to his friend doing this to me and it probably isnt good, but i'd rather get used to it than cause anything to rupture. i wish he didnt think it was funny, crushing my heart is not funny, but i have learned that he has no respect for me and probably doesnt realize how sensitive i am...but i guess he doesnt have to, i guess its just one of those things i'll have to get over or whatever...