i look like a little kid hahaha

Friday,

i went to a football game at my boyfriend's school. i had fun, haha. my friend Kelsi was also there because her boyfriend is on the football team and goes to all the games. i hung out with her and Nicko pretty much the whole time.

when i got there i was really scared, cuz i didnt know anyone there...

but to my surprise, everyone knew me!

apparently, nicko brags about me to everyone, and he's knows pretty much  everyone..he said he talked about me all the time but i thought he was kidding! apparently he wasnt, lol.

i remember one guy, he walked up to us and then he was like "HOLD ON..." then he's thinking really hard and he was like "KITTY!" i was like yea, thats me, haha.

people knew me by name lol (nick name)

it was pretty cool

then my friend from church, briana, we ran into her...

nicko and briana's boyfriend thought we looked alike,

but they didnt knew we knew eachother

i remember looking over at her

and she was like "...Asberry?!"

and we were all like "Heeeey i know you!"

it was funny, our boyfriends were like

"WTF?!"

priceless.

of course, there was a huge scene

nicko's friend was pissed at his other friend

so he's yellin & goin everywhere

i had no clue what was going on,

so i just sat there like

la la la la...

it was a good day

^_^

my boyfriend's prettier than me

 

[Photo credit : Kelsi Howell]

Personality Developement: "Nature vs. Nurture*

Today in my fourth class, Pshycology/Sociology, we were talking about the Nature vs Nurture debate or Genetics vs How You Were Raised. Mrs.Disbro says that most people are in the middle and dont choose, i know i cant. It's gotta be both...there cant be just one, here's some of my thoughts on on some of the topics we discussed in class. i'll compare between me and my sister and our family situation. I'm blogging about it because i raised my hand and she kinda didnt call on me, then when she did, i didnt get to finish and the next time i was just too frustrated to even want to say anything, haha sorry!

SHYNESS

nature or nurture?

it could be NATURE...my little sister was always kinda quiet (even though her voice is loud) she was timid and kinda shy when she was younger. when she was a baby and a toddler, she almost never cried unless she was really hurt. Now that she has more friends and has grown up a little more, she's more outgoing and has no problem talking to people.

it could be NURTURE...i didn't start out shy. i used to be the little girl who would just go up to people and ask them a question or tell them something and try to make friends. after a little while that changed. i started getting made fun of alot and i became really quiet and kinda scared to talk to people especially after 5th grade when my school closed and i had to change schools & started staying home alone more.

ANGER

nature or nuture?

it could be NATURE...for me, an anger problem is something i was just born with. It's a trait from my dad that i inherited, i guess. i did notice that some of the things i do when i'm angry are things that he does and a couple other people have noticed too (that know my dad) my mom said the way i get mad also reminds her of her brother Willy (R.I.P.) i never knew him, but my grandma has said the same thing and has called me his name several times.

it could be NURTURE...my sister didn't used to get mad easily, and still doesnt but she gets mad more now than she used to. i know from people at her school and previous school have done things that really frustrate her (one in particular) and with her situation living far from her friends and not talking to them as much could be a part of it— and i know i'm a part, i'm the older sister so i know i frustrate her. sorry teh! :)

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~another thing with nature and nurture...when my mom left my dad, my sister was still a baby, but i was about 4. she might not be as angry also because she didnt go through the divorce like i did. She doesnt even remember it, but i remember leaving. she's never really lived with him besides our summer or christmas visits. my mom told me about the divorce years after it happened and before i knew i was clueless, which made me more mad. so it looks like my anger is both nature and nurture.

i may write more on this subject later, but i had to get my thoughts out. i kinda like being able to compare things like this.

 

wow, how wierd,

i just blogged on a school subject

?!

Check Out One of My Favorite Blogs...Ciao Florentina!

click the banner to go to CiaoFlorentina.com!

i was on twitter and maybe a few months ago at the most, a charming lady named Florentina started following me and was my 80th follower. She's a really sweet person and is also very pretty and a talented cook! I remember when she first got her WordPress blog, i bookmarked it right away! then soon enough, her web site was up and now its flourishing :) she makes all kinds of things, like these:

Chicken & Dumplings

Florentina Salad

Cherry Tomato Crostini

(all pictures are by Florentina, and all are from CiaoFlorentina.com)

the best part is that she also posts her recipes so you can make everything she does! My grandma and i are planning to make her spagetti & shrimp recipe sometime. doesn't all this food look good? Well check out her site and see what else she's got, there's lots of food to love!

As Florentina would say:

Peace, Love & Food!

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I'm gonna! :D

Poem - An Oasis and Waterfall

its so early in the day,
the sun is shining bright
i watch the clouds pass over us
as i hold on tight
the weather's warm and so are we,
the heat is only churning
since the time had been so long
and for eachother, we were yearning
and to the rhythm of the sound
of the birds who softly call,
nothing feels better than
an oasis and waterfall

in and out goes the sun
in between each cloud
doing just as we are,
but we may be loud
in the ground, the grass is green,
just like others may be
that we have eachother, but
too bad, they can't see
here in our paradise
where our minds are free from all,
nothing is more beautiful than
an oasis and waterfall

from the blueness of the sky
to the sand on the ground,
the water rippling with waves
and thier soothing sound,
silhouetted birds, high flying
on the ground, we are lying
trees blowing
in the breeze
us on
our hands and knees
a love far greater than the number of
each and every grain of sand,
its just us two, me and you,
together, hand in hand
and to the rhythm of the sound
of the birds who softly call,
nothing feels better than
an oasis and waterfall

Me on YouTube!

ok, so lamest video ever.

first WMM didnt accept the camera's file type

then i converted all the files

after that, it said i didnt have the codecs

so i downloaded them

STILL DIDNT WORK

so i converted all the clips into GIF's

then added sound

genius huh?

and my friends seem to like it :)

mission : accomplished

Sick Today :(

i was feeling horrible this morning, and dont feel my best right now either. this is me laying on the couch this morning feeling so out of it. my throat was hurting, my head was hurting, stomach hurting, just everything. i missed the bus because i didnt feel like getting up and my knee was bothering me a little, i just really didnt wanna go to school. my mom dragged me out of the house and got me into the car then on the way to school she stopped at ameristop. i was still crying and could hardly stop, every two seconds i felt like i was gonna puke. she drags me in and buys crackers then tells me to eat them and that it would make me feel better. you dont give a kid with a sore throat something crunchy...it scratched up my throat. then she said to suck on it to make it soft first..but just the taste of a soggy cracker made me throw up in my mouth. just my luck, i only throw up stomach acid and it burns all the cuts in my throat and it felt horrible. i was in alot of pain.

then we get to school and she shoves me out of the car and leaves. i end up walking into school crying and feeling like i'm gonna throw up everywhere. first person i see is Zach, who gives me a big hug and says he hopes i'll feel better. everyone in the hallway [which wasnt many people because i was late] kept asking me if i was alright. (DID I LOOK ALRIGHT? NO!) i said i was fine or that i didnt feel good. when i got to advisory everyone stared at me like i was a freak...another reason i didnt wanna go to school, i get embarrassed easily and dont like alot of personal attention like that. to make matters worse Mrs.Monteith drags me out into the hallway and talks to me.

i cried into first block but still managed to get my PowerPoint on Hippocampus kuda done.

then i cried for a second in the next class and went to the nurse after that.

of course the nurse was at lunch so i went to the nurse when my lunch bell started. i got permission to go home but my mom refused to pick me up so i had to walk. i called my grandma on the way to see if she could get me but she didnt answer, and i was feeling horrible. she was going to get gas i think and she saw me and picked me up. as soon as i got home i went to sleep.

when i woke up, i was happy to see an @reply on twitter from my favorite blogger, (@sweetmangoLOVE) saying that she hoped i would feel better soon. i felt so special :) but i was still sick, haha. i took a picture of myself to see what i looked like...

and got that. i had never actually seen my make up run before so it interested me. haha. i did some work for credit recovery online to catch up a little, but no where near done. i dont like doing schoolwork so i kinda stopped..

to tell you the truth, im actually surprised at how many people asked me if i was ok today, its usually only like 4 but today it was about 11. i'm not native to that, but it was different. hopefully i'll feel better soon. meanwhile, i have yogurt to eat...since its the only thing that doesn't hurt to swallow, haha

Photography - Silhouettes, Windows and Sunrise

this isnt really edited either! i didnt even crop it  just barely increased the saturation. this was a horrible morning but the view of the sunrise from my front yard was gorgeous. between the tears i took this. i love how the tree is like silhouette and you can see the clouds reflecting on the windows

Photography - Seen from the window, but its better in the clear

i was at Frisch's yesterday with my boyfriend and his parents and i couldnt stop looking outside. i just thought the sunset looked so pretty out...of course i wanted to take a picture of it but i didnt say anything cuz i didnt want to be a bother, and cuz his parents were there. After me and Nicko were done eating we went outside and he said he remembered me saying something a couple weeks ago about how i thought the sky was pretty and told me to take a picture, so i did and it turned out really nice :) i didnt even edit it, its only cropped.

Photo Collection - Creature of the night

doesn't this picture kinda remind you of Type O Negative? maybe because i was listening to them as i edited all of these, i took them last night...Enjoy!

my favorite song at the moment,

one of the things about me and music, is that i pretty much tune out the actual music half the time and just listen to the lyrics. usually, if i don't like the lyrics to a song i wont even bother to listen to it. Well, here is my favorite song at the moment- No leaf clover by Metallica. i love the lyrics and the symphony they used with the song...here's a video and the lyrics, maybe you'll like it too, ya never know.

And it feels right this time
On this crash course we're in the big time
Pay no mind to the distant thunder
Beauty fills his head with wonder, boy....

Says it feels right this time
Turn around, found new high lights
Good day to be alive Sir
Good day to be alive, he said.....

Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
is just a freight train coming your way
Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
is just the freight train coming your way

Don't it feel right like this
All the pieces fall to his wish
Suck up for that quick reward boy
Suck up for that quick reward they said.....

Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
is just a freight train coming your way
Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
is just the freight train coming your way......
It's coming your way
It's coming your way......
Here comes

Yeah, Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
Is just a freight train coming your way.... Yeah...
Then it comes to be, Yeah...
Then it comes to be, Yeah...
Then it comes to be, Yeah...
Then it comes to be, Yeah...
Then it comes to be, Yeah...
Then it comes to be, Yeah...
Then it comes to be, Yeah...
Then it comes to be, Yeah!

Experimenting with a new style...

lately i got into drawing simple fairies as you've seen in some earlier posts...now today, i ended up making these characters, i guess you'd call them. they're different than my other drawings in a way...it's kind of like my usual faceless people but now they have eyes and noses...i don't know how i came up with this but i kinda like it. and i noticed something about alot of my art...they all have my nose haha, i guess thats how i show myself through my art or somthing. well the first drawing (edited and unedited) is actually the character Karina from my story. Here are my experiments...hope you like them!

Drawing - Waiting

Drawing - Leafbreeze

Lyrics - Forget

what did i do?

how'd i lose you?

the best is all i gave it

i tried so hard to save it

-

but i was in a cage and trapped in

i couldnt figure out what happened

those were your arms i was wrapped in

now im the sh*t hole you just crapped in

-

for 8 long months you heard me screamin (x2)

for 8 long months i saw you leavin(x2)

-

so just go on with your girl,

forget i was here

so just go on with your girl,

forget i was even here

-

you wiped my tears away

you even said sorry

you were my crutch

i loved you so much

-

you stuck a knife in my heart

then i didnt feel so smart

is this some kind of sick art?

i should have known from the start

-

for 8 long months you heard me screamin (x2)

for 8 long months i saw you leavin(x2)
-

so just go on with your girl,

forget i was here

so just go on with your girl,

forget i was even here

-
yea, im singin about you
can you hear me? (you cant)
i'm in the air around you
can you feel me? (you cant)
i'm standing right in front of you
can you see me? (you cant)
-
forget me
completely
delete me
from your memory
kill me
already
can't you see me
running
-
so just go on with your girl,
forget i was here
so just go on with your girl,
forget i was even here (x2)
so just go on with your girl,
forget you saw me bare
so just go on with your girl,
forget that i care
so just go on with your girl,
don't run your fingers through my hair
so just go on with your girl,
what you did wasnt fair
-
what did i do?
how'd i lose you?
the best is all i gave it
i tried so hard to save it...

Drawing - Untitled

Drawing - Cradled in Air

Drawing - Faceless

Drawing - Weeping Fairy

Poem - Looking Back

i look back and remember
i remember a different life
sometimes it saddens me to see all i left behind
sometimes it saddens me to see all who left me behind
i wonder how it would be, maybe if things were different
i don't want things to change anymore
i don't want things to leave
now that everything makes sense


i look back and remember
i remember a different feeling
sometimes it makes me happy that i can be fine here
sometimes it makes me happy that they can be fine with me here
i wonder how it would be, maybe if things were different
i don't want people worry about me
i don't want people to hate
now that everything makes sense

i look back and remember
i remember a different love
it excites me that i found the right person
it excites me that i found true love
i wonder how it would be, maybe if things were different
i don't want to know
i don't want him to leave me
now that everything makes sense