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i got bored and decided to check it out...

thanks Koo for getting me addicted xD

here's the first set i've made

if you click the picture it'll take you to the profile i have on there

which lists the prices of each thing automatically :)

i like this site alot :)

✧✦CAKEPOPS✦✧

★ ohayogozaimasuuuu ⋂_⋂ /  ★

how is every one of you lovelies today ~ ?

its a bit chilly today ~ so i'm cold >.<

news update: i am now the editor for the comic Puri Puri Majo by my bestie RabbitoBonBon! :D

i wanted to introduce to you all...

✧✦CAKEPOPS✦✧

arent they kawaii??

i had a purple vanilla one and Labby had a chocolate one
mine was funfetti in the inside and Labby's was red velvet

they were amazing!

we are going to scrounge for money and mooch so we can get more xD

they are 1$ each >.< i was so mad

the day before, they told us 75 cents then randomly change it >:/

i was super duper mad!

then my friend Erica made this in her foods class

(she always brings it to history class  to share with me xD)

chocolate covered vanilla cookies, orange slices, and chicken, vegetable and cheese pockets

she made them herself :)

it was a contest where she was given a bunch of stuff and had to combine it

she didnt win, but she should have!

those pockets were to die for! she's giving me the recipe :)

thats all for now, loves!

i am doing a doodle for an add for Rabbito-chan's comic

hopefully will finish today :)

remember to join moshimoshilove!

ttyl ♥

moshimoshi!

its a japanese phone greeting :)

speaking of the phrase...i made a small social site called MoshiMoshiLove!

it's of course FREE and i made it so all of my blogger friends can talk and connect with eachother ^_^

please sign up :D it would make me very happy :))

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anywayz, nicko's spring break has started today~~

last night there was a huge storm...TORNADO SIRENS WENT OFF!

and i am deathly afraid of storms!!!

and nick hasnt texted me, so i'm getting worried :(

i hope he didn't die :(

i know i sound ridiculous but he was joking that it would be our last phone convo last night and that the storm will make him die and i was like D= NUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!

maybe he has just woke up late :( ugh im  worried :[

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meow!

hi everyone :D

this morning is a rainy morning ~~

super bored and stuff  but i just wanna go home >.<

senior superlatives is tomaro >.<

HOPEFULLY EVERYONE VOTES FOR ME FOR MOST ARTISTIC! PLEASE!!! :)

maybe i can graduate even earlyer...i dont wanna wait till december, maybe if i do summerschool i can leave before the schoolyear...

i have to do a project for senior english

turns out its just a life-story version of the book i'm making for nicko

but i dont wanna do it >.<

it will make me depressed :/ all the stuff you gotta put in it and all the stories you have to remember and write...i have to try and find happy ones

i like making my love notebook because i actually want to,

but now that there is a project that i HAVE to do...i dont want to :/

there's a freshman page, middle school page, crush page, preschool page, childhood page, music page, who i am page...just really dont wanna do it :/ blehh

i have to work on it next bell...2 pages due friday and i need to print out pics

usin up all my damn printer ink >.< moo!

blehh -.- well ttyl..

random pictures lol

animated:

i was bored the other day lol

should i go brown?

 yesterday was such a boooring day and sooo long -__- blehh

i guess you could say, that i went on a date with myself yesterday. me and nick were supposed to meet up but of course as always his parents make other plans + a misunderstanding of the time and blah blah blah yah basically he didn't get to come :(

this is what i ate

 loaded fries  (queso, sour cream, onions, peppers, chili, beef, tomato) yum!

queso dip = love

the food was all so good :) and they actually offered me a job,

i said i'd apply so i filled it out right there, shook hands with the manager and the waitress so they'll remember me :) now i just gotta call to see if they've looked yet. this might be my chance, they say people quit hosting all the time :) and if i keep the job long enough i can do waitressing instead, you have to be 19 to serve alcohol/liquor here and i'm 18. wish me luck :D

yesterday i was also feeling very bored when i got home,

and i started listening to nsync...

yes, boy band from my childhood xD 

and i decided to experiment with my dancing...

i only uploaded it so i can remember it, because i want to make up a clear cut version that is actually choreographed

i look super serious in these vids because i'm used to dancing infront of big studio mirrors but all i got is a webcam xD

i need to work on arm movements >.<

attempt 2

just as bad xDDD

don't hate please and dont make fun of me!

at least i had the courage to embarrass myself like this hahaha

today this is how my hair looks

side ponytail and a heart clipped in my hair :)

alot of people ask me where i get the heart, really it's just a heart cut out of cardstock, thick paper and i have one made of construction paper too, then painted with nail polish for more sturdyness :) the other side is colored pink by crayola marker, same heart i wore in my hair on valentines day:

i like my paper heart :) going to make stars and skulls ^_^ it'll be kawaii :D

and speaking of hair, i'm thinking of dying my hair back to brown...

this is what it might look like:

what do you think? please comment ^_^

and how do you like the new layout?

i think it is quite sunny :D at least the banner...lol

i feel like adding things still >.<

i'm trying not to make my page too busy though, dont wanna crash everyone's PC xD

[[xoaeribaby]]

Tonight

wind blowing against the trees. the sound of fragile branches cracking. the trees vigorously swaying as if they were desperate to stay attatched to the ground. as if they were going to fly away with the birds struggling to get back to one of those very trees.

i sat on the ground, under the big tree in the back yard. the shadow of the neighbor's dog phantomed between the crevices of the wooden gate, like a ghost; a sad one. howling, wishing to be saved from the incoming storm. i asked him, "why do they leave you outside when it's like this?" he whined to me, and i asked if he was afraid; no answer. he shuffled away and lay his head down on the concrete of the back porch, right beneath the porch light.

i sighed. i wish they would let him in, it's not safe out here.


wild onions almost sideways in the ground. grass curling around the roots penetrating the night air from the dry soil. dry, although it had rained the whole day. the ground is apathetic, unlike the sky. she cries tonight.

only two lights appear, the neighbor's porch and a creature's reflective green eyes at the corner of the yard. supposing it's a cat, i go near it and it turns away. maybe it's afraid, or maybe it's unaware that i'm safe. the leftover leaves from autumn cracked beneath my bare feet. damp with rainwater rested in the grass. no moon and no stars tonight, only wind and sky tears, yet the lunar lunar vibe still surounded me, as if it could feel me there, just to remind me that it still exists.

i sighed. i wish i could see the stars, to remind me of those pleasant memories.


i lay down in the grass next to the gate, the dog comes over to lay on the other side. the odd closeness i have with this creature although we have never met face to face. the way he reacts when i speak to him, almost like i could call him a friend. i got a brave bone and sat upward to look through the crack, and he sat up too. i stuck my finger through the hole, with the fear that i would be bit, but i did. i touched his chin and he didn't make a sound, a moment later he pulled back and circled his nose beneath my finger and bumped it as if he wanted me to pet it. i stroked the bridge of his nose with my finger and he licked me, then i pulled back. the dog layed back down and whined, i layed back down too. we layed there for about 20 minutes, just waiting for ourselves to get tired, so i could go back into the house. when he heard me get up i saw his head perk up in a shadow. "goodbye, until nextime." he whined at me, then i started to walk away more. before i went into the door, i saw him lay back onto the concrete of the porch.

i sighed. i wish they would let him in, it's not safe out here.

La La La, ♥

well today got alot better :D at lunch me and Labby brought our spare change so we could get something to eat and we came up with 1.35$, which isnt enough for very much. we ended up spending 1$ on ice cream! all the ice cream is 50 cents and we never looked until now. "so you mean all this time we could have eaten ice cream like EVERY DAY?! ugh!" i know Kaitlin, i feel the same xD we were mad about that because last year it costed more lol  

also, my teacher asked me to design a t-shirt for our anti-bullying campain in the mentor program that i am in.  my friend Amber helped me come up with the idea and then i made it in photoshop cs3 . here it is :)

this is the original, but our school colors are blue and gold so i converted it to our school colors and sent her the images in an email

she was so excited about it and i got 20 points extra credit :)

i cant wait to see the shirts, its gonna be so cool seeing MY design on a t-shirt, even if it is for school.

i'm proud of myself :) the whole class congratulated me :)

meador said she especially loved the sword being yellow :)

i am super happy right now ahh!!

well i will blog later if anything else happens :) ttyl loves <333

bad day already ( > . < )

i'm in first bell atm and im very bored. today is the senior out of uniform day and it turned out my clock in my room was slow and i had to sprint to the bus.  when i got to school i figured out my wristband had fallen out of my pocket and they made me buy another instead of just gave me one so that used up my lunch money  i had a yummy english muffin with  sausage egg and cheese   for breakfast but it made my stomach hurt, i went outside to the career center to drop off a note and a bird pooped on my shoe  ugh. and nick wasnt talking much this morning either  blehh...i hate mornings like this

casi siempre mierda como esto sucede -_- ughhh

on the book i'm making for nick i have completed 50 super loving and adorable pages i have enough pictures for about 3 more 2 page spreads, enough poems for about 10-15 more pages, some drawings and some more fun stuff its a  super cute project and i would show you, but he reads my blog, he's seen some of it but not all of it, and i at least want some of it to be a surprise  

now we are starting our senior memory book in senior english,

i was like "grr this is conflicting with my nicko memory book!" xD

but it will be an easy grade, cuz when you present it at the end of the year it counts as your exam grade. i'm not very good at presenting because my class is about 40% disrespectful to the people talking and make side comments that always annoy me and piss me off -_- but i'll still do good :]
la la la la~ i'm listening to The Used :) i love this band, Bert writes some seriously good lyrics, and his voice is really strong in emotion...he puts so much feeling when he sings and the vibe of the song completely changes. like the way he sings Best of Me is so different than the way he sand I Caught Fire, it's really cool how he can do that. when singers convey feeling in the way with thier voice i always think of thier talent so much higher than people who solely just sing well. because not all singers can do that.

i think they are definately one of my favorite bands again :) in 8th grade i was obsessed with them for about 2 weeks because one of my friends always listened to them, the first song i heard was Pretty Handsom Awkward which will always remain as one of my favorite songs :) i love it.

wwell i'll blog later, ttyl :) <3

i wish i was still pretty >.< blehh

konnichiwa. i'm super bored >.< don't really know what to blog about really

i did finish 3 more pages in my book though :) happy about that

i also got a cinnamon roll this morning, it was good,

but i think it was too much sugar...

i'm all shaky & sick!

my tummy feels all icky :( and i was already bloated~

my freaking tired, and just want to go back to sleep.

it seems that i have gotten uglier :[

each year, i get worse and worse looking

and now i feel fat...

for any of you, you would think this is super tiny, i weigh 102 lbs right now

but for me, that is abnormal, because i usually weigh about 86

i'd been trying to accumulate some weight over the past year

and fight to keep it on, because it is hard for me to gain any weight

i'm fine with my legs...but i want to tone my arms and have a flatter stomach...its a little bit round now and makes my chest look small too :( and my face is rounder...i hate it :(

this is me over the years, the only thing that really has changed is my hair color...i get almost the same haircut every year but i cchange my hair color sometimes, and now i'm back to my natural

and after all this time back to black, i'm thinking of going back to brown again just like in the pics from 2 years ago...

i'm also more girly now than i was now, and back then i looked a little emo-ish / punk-ish

i wish i still looked like that...i dont know which way i looked best,

i really liked my hair this summer though,

even better when i had coontails in the sides, then my hair fell out because my put something in it :(

and back 2 years ago, this was fall 2008

my favorite hair i think, i really liked it brown...

this is my hair now,

its black with blond underneath 

(it was green but it had to fade for school)

not sure what i should do with my hair...i kinda wanna go brown :/

but i like it black as well...

i need to re-do the blonde and maybe put a layer of brown on top of it? i dont know :[

and its almost summer and i want a crazy color,

green again or purple? ugh i dont know! i just don't want to be ugly :(

or fat...so now i really wanna work out again to get my belly off

because it really does feel different to have that much weight on me that i'm not used to,

it feels like i'm going so much slower and my butt jiggles when i run up the stairs and its wierd D:

i still dance, but i think its actually making my but BIGGER!

it was supposed to help get my body looking a little better not a fat butt xD

ugh idk :(

i just wanna be back to normal...

blah...i'm gonna drink alot of water today and take advantage of all of the fiber product in my house. we have flax seed, mini wheats, granola, nutty nuggets and others...and gonna eat more soup, i guess i'll leave in the water when i eat my ramen now instead of draining it, just drink it instead

this really is starting to freak me out :|

you know,

my life may be on the computer, but at least i have friends on here that wont betray me. my life could be all out in the world and doing horrible things to people and doing horrible things to myself. my real life isnt that good, and this is my way of escaping it. some people use drugs, but i use a hard drive and its alot better.
i may not always act mature, but no one is always mature, even old people have a child inside of them. and some adults are more immature than i am. and the way i think sometimes and you can see it most when i think about love, i am not immature at all. i'm always serious and i don't play around.
i'm stronger than you think, because i've been through things that people kill themselves over and even though i did try to do that and failed time after time, i'm still alive and i still try to be happy. i don't harm myself and i try to make other people happy too. i have an extra add-on to my life that i dont even talk about and i can deal with it and accept that i have it, when other people would rather die than admit they have a problem.
i may not like to be around people i don't like, but i'm nice to them even if they're there. i still try to help them if they ask or need it.
just because im not like everyone esle doesnt mean that i'm wierd or crazy. being different can be a good things and if people knew the real me jmaybe they'd atually like me.

lots of stuff on my mind...going to lunch...

blahhh

not really in a blogging mood today, or at least not at the moment

i'm hungry and forgot my wallet :( ughhh

and just alot of things on my mind right now >.<

but like my hair? pigtails today ^_^

and looking for a new music player because something is wrong with singingbox :(

which makes me sad because i love that player :(

well, i'll btyl :)

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THERE IS A REASON!!!!

i dont say how i feel for a REASON! i dont' not share my feelings just cuz i dont want to, its because I CANT.  now i remember why i made a private blog. i cant say whatever i want without someone being upset. remember the promise?

or do you still care about it? i thought you did, you said you wouldnt forget?

i'm not trying to play games...people do change, you changed, i changed, you said i'm not even the same person that you met almost two years ago. and i'm not being childish, i cant believe you're calling me that. you know me and you know everything that's going on, knowing me and loving me like you do, i cant believe you would judge me :'(

and nick, "Puppy" is a girl, it's Kaitlin, so idk why you have a bad feeling.. she's been my friend the whole year. she's not even a close friend just a good friend, i just wanted to have a friend :(

i'm in a bad mood bye...

morning sunshines :)

good morning from your favorite Berry, Aeri :)

i got the heart shaped clips in my hair :) pink & yellow on one side, 1 pink on the other

pink blush, white shadow, pink gloss and black winged eyeliner

i got this comment from Wynter B this morning ~

you're very welcome i cant wait to see what you do with the tag :D

and i'm glad you like my hair :) and i know what you mean xD

thanks for the sweet comment

i am a little bit sick today despite my bright face this morning

i woke up at 3AM with a super evil stomach cramp and couldnt get back to sleep  because it hurt so bad  i got up and took out the trash, did makeup and pinned up my hairs in the back  then left for the bus. i didn't even want to stand  i was so tired and sore mehhh

i'm listening to a bunch of music now, just being bored

doing my page for yearbook~ need pictures~~

blehh but dont want to take them

i hate invading the classes to take pictures of them >.<

i wanted to see nick again today

but i see that i am not wanted at his house  . .

his mom complained at him last night saying "kitty is here like every day"

which made me feel like shit . . . honestly she seems to enjoy having me there when she talks to me at dinner and stuff but i guess not . . . i feel dumb for that  ugh. .

i really hope we don't go back to only seeing eachother 1x a week again. .

i hated that... we are so much happier together when we get to see eachother alot, when we're apart for a long time we get paranoid and mad at eachother all the time and i dont want that :

i love my nicko baby

i hope he passes his math test, he's got a big one today :)

 good luck babyboy

that's all i got for now my friends,

will blog later :) got classes to attend

and getting observed by another school today in my Mentor Program

wish me and nick both the best of luck!

byebye ^_^