horrible news..

i found out i cant see nick all summer..

i m  c o m p l e t e l y

C   R   U   S   H   E   D

you have no idea.

our one year anniversary is only next motnth

and we cant even talk :'( i just cant stop crying...

i have to cry with no one to comfort me, because he is my shoulder to cry on

i'm going to be so dead at school tomorow

i hope we have a boring day because i know i wont be able to concentrate

his parents are too hard on him..

they make him play soccer and he's blown out his knees, ankles & back

and then they ground him for the WHOLE summer

as if cracking bones in his legs arent bad enough already

and i've heard them put him down before just sitting in the car

and it makes me so sad...

he's helped me through everything

and been there for me and saved me

i wish they could see all that good stuff that i do 

maybe they wouldnt be so hard on him all the time..

i love him more than anything and i hope they change thier mind :(

i miss him so much already