trying new hair-style?

i've been doing the 2-braids thing for a little while...dont really like my curls but whatcha think? :)

thank you Blaze ^_^

List 3 things I love about myself:
my second half (nicko♥)my double-jointed fingers :Di really dont love anything about myself

Post a picture I love:

Tag five people to pass this award to:Rabbito [http://rabbitochikachieco.blogspot.com]Candy Tuft [http://candyunnietuft.blogspot.com]Rineko [http://rineko-lalala.blogspot.com]Chloe [http://chipmunk2011.tumblr.com]Blaze [http://bbyrumble.blogspot.com]


♥

guess what i found on my couch yesterday...!

a cute boy with pretty eyes, long bouncy hair and a LaSalle school uniform

Nicko came over :D and i cooked for him

i made Chili 3-Ways :) he said he liked it :)

the first time i really have cooked for him

we played around with my sister and we painted a little

it made me happy to see him :)

and i kinda attacked him before he left but he didnt mind lol

i got super tired and fell asleep early for some reason 

but i slept really well ^_^

now i'm at school....

because the home internet doesnt work again -___- *

hopefully it will soon though...

cuz i dont like this stupid "i have to go outside to get wifi" crap

>.<

RIP Peter Steele :(

he is one of my all-time favorite musicians

im honored that i got to see him in person before...

click here to see my photography from the Type O Negative Concert

[http://sincerelyberry.blogspot.com/2009/10/concert.html]

he was thier bassist and Vocalist...

RIP :(

blahhh..

in a kind of bad mood :/ im scared-ish right now..

and nervous and things :(

but i found this picture from the summer i thought was pretty :)

but i just edited it today

look at how young i look 0_0 ....o jeez lol

i miss nicko!! i might be going to watch his soccer practice today :)

i hope i can!! either way i wanna see him today

i've been around so much lately, i hope his parents arent mad at me...

they're probably getting tired of me >.<

that's one of my favorite quotes from the song Razorblade Kiss by HIM ↑

it always stuck out to me

i think im gonna start a quotes section on here :D

what do you think? :)

old webcam picture

from about a month ago

bright side award :D

1.Give a top 10 list of the things that make you happy.
Nicko's Love
Sentimental things
Art
Music
Writing
Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough
Malts & Milkshakes
Chinese&Japanese Buffets
Sushi
Mango Ice Cream

2.Give a top 5 list of trivia or facts about yourself
my birthday is 10 days before Valentines Day
I play 4 instruments and sing
my favorite band is HIM
i am extremely scared of thunderstorms
*i am legally engaged...!

3.Share the award with only 5 friends and ask them to do the same thing.
Rabbito (http://rabbitochikachieco.blogspot.com)
Chloe (http://chipmunk2011.tumblr.com)
Kashie (http://kaseysgotsomethingtohide.blogspot.com)
Rineko (http://rinekolalala.blogspot.com)
Blaze (http://bbyrumble.blogspot.com)

5.Link the blogs you choose and link the blog of the person who awarded you.
already done ↑ ↑ ↑
thank you rabbito for this award ^_^

life hasnt been bad at all lately,

but i miss my nicko :(

i havent seen him for 2 days >.<

maybe i can see him today...i hope :D

spring break was great because i got to see him all the time

and the week after i did too

lets keep this trend goin baby!!

cuz i like it :)

Photography - Good Morning

Photography - Clouds (500th POST)

took this at Nick's soccer game :)

#17 :)

Nick went to church with me today :D

he was getting a little aggravated with me towards the beginning of the day because i was in a bad mood kind of and the people in the room were making me irritated which irritated him

it didnt take me too long to get in a better mood

but after i felt better i was scared to hold his hand because i thought he was mad :(

but when we were in class he wrote "kitty" with a heart next to it on his hand

so i wrote "LOVE NICK" across my fingers

he smiled at me and showed me he wasnt mad and held my hand

during the service, Sam said we could sit somewhere else instead of me doing the sound

so me and Nick straight up ate a loaf of bread lol

and i had half a cookie and dr.pepper, he had Mountain Dew

he brought quarters specifically to buy me Dr.Pepper :)

aint he cute? <33

i got to watch Nicko play soccer for the first time today :)

i was happy to finally see him play

every time i saw the number 17 i was like 

"aww, thats my baby!!"

he's so cute bouncin around everywhere with his hair floppin in the wind

 ^_^

hehe he's so adorable <333

his team lost by like 1 point :(

i tried to keep score but i got distracted by the people on the sidelines talking and later his sister and her dog Bella

....which eventually peed on me -_- haha

we went to Frisches to eat and then Nicko showed me all of the graffiti around the area on the way home

or i thought we were going home lol

we went to the Goody Shop and got the best chocolate shakes EVER

i swear they're the best <33

i want another one now >.<

when i got home, i didnt wanna be there

i missed nick already >.<

then for some reason i felt the need to tease him lol

then he called me and i got to hear his cute voice

^_^

Photography - Frog and Plane

taken at Nick's game

Poem - Yet You Are The One To Break It

don't stare at me...

don't come in my direction...

you wrap around my heart and squeeze it until it pops

though i am not close to you, you are always around me

taunting me

haunting me

but most of all

hurting me

because you are everywhere

you step onto the ground before me and attempt to make me fall

                                       and you try to trip me because of a fall

                                                         to trip me on guilt

                                                                           a guilt i should not possess

there you go,

you've gotten your revenge

i didnt know who you were and hurt you by accidnent

                                   but you hurt me on purpose

you've scarred me with out a single touch

and now you've carved your name into veins as proof that you were here

  its set in stone

and set in blood

                        or soon to be

                                            once you finally kill me

because i know what you say

      and i know what you have said before

      and i know your name

                                       they all hurt to hear

                                       there are things that remind me of you

                                                              

i never loved you and you never loved me,

                    you never had my heart, never anywhere close

               yet you are the one to break it

anytime i hear of you, another piece falls off

when i see your name, or anything near it, my stomach turns

did you know i was hurt? well, that doesn't matter

                               and well, you wouldn't care anyhow

                               and well, you got what you wanted

i hate to sleep

i hate it because of you

             because of you i wake up feeling sickened

             because you rear your head into my dreams

             because you can turn a perfect day into a nightmare

because of you i have to hold back my tears

because of you i realized a heart once mended has had the seams ripped

                                                                                                 ripped again

a dead soul resurrected is slowly being laid to rest again

by you singing a lullabye that could soothe only the hard of hearing

a song that weakens me

                                   because i was strong until you

i heard you were gone for good...

he told me and he's happy he is free...

then i realized 

that now i was the one trapped

when i looked up and saw your name

when i looked over and saw your name

                                                         and i saw you everywhere

i never loved you and you never loved me,

                    you never had my heart, never anywhere close

               yet you are the one to break it

anytime i hear of you, another piece falls off

when i see your name, or anything near it, my stomach turns

did you know i was hurt? well, that doesn't matter

                               and well, you wouldn't care anyhow

                               and well, you got what you wanted

Thanks Nicko :)

he took these 2 pictures up at UC at his sister's lacrosse game

he said the first one reminds him of a japanese school girl ^_^

[click to enlarge]

new HIM shirt :)

thank you Nicko baby :)

he got me a bracelet too. and i got to see him today ^_^

tomoro im gonna finally go see him play soccer!!

Songs Left Unexplained #4 - Scared to Death

a newer song i have been thinking about lately

it's called "scared to death" by the band HIM off of thier new albun Screamworks

the entire album is beautiful, i definately recomend it :)

In the biblical sense and sensibility
let me know you
I'll kiss that smile off your face
just say when


I'm not afraid to say 'I love you'
any more than I used to be, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love


All these people blast from hell
ice break is infernal
from a heart so black and blue
only for you


(just say when, again)


I'm not afraid to say 'I love you'
any more than I used to be, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love
with you


I'm not afraid to say 'I love you'
any more than I used to be, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love


I'm not afraid to admit I adore you
any more than I was before, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love
with you


with you...


scared to death...


I'm scared to death..


And you're sweet like poison...




now with my input...


In the biblical sense and sensibility
let me know you
I'll kiss that smile off your face
just say when
usually the phrase "i'll kiss that smile off your face" wouldnt mean anything good, but i think about it in a different way.  to me, i think of it as just kissing them passionately, because most people dont always smile when they kiss that way. "in the biblical sense and sensibility let me know you" means, since alot of people say the Bible is the truth, that he wants to you in the truest way. and since God is the most caring and loving person then in sensibility he may mean he wants to be sweet to them 


I'm not afraid to say 'I love you'
any more than I used to be, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love
first two lines -i was terrified to tell nick i loved him for the first time...honestly i was..it was scary, just that fear that he may not feel the same or wont say it back or wouldnt talk to me again...i was scared. but it's a now or never moment..if i hadnt said it then i may have never gotten the chance again and would have regretted it so i did it. "i am scared to death to fall in love" because it is scary. i am very much in love, but im always still falling in love with him. i never stop falling, and its still scary but a good scary. its okay to be scared sometimes. its one of those scary's that are like "wow...this great thing is happening to..me?" realizations without the worry that it wont be said back. true love is a truely beautiful thing


All these people blast from hell
ice break is infernal
from a heart so black and blue
only for you
"all these people blast from hell" would represent all of the people who have ever hurt me, im not the most well liked person so i have been made fun of and called names alot through my life but "from a heart so black and blue, only for you" just shows that he is the only one who has the power to heal my heart and make me forget my problems and hurts


(just say when, again)


(chorus x2)

 I'm not afraid to admit I adore you
any more than I was before, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love
with you


with you...


scared to death...


I'm scared to death..


And you're sweet like poison...

Photography - Tehya With Tea

sick today T-T

no sad face really though...today was very good :)

i was sick so i stayed home from school

i told Nicko and he wanted to take care of me and make me feel better

so he came over to my house, walking on a hurt ankle...

he would have skated but it was wet outside

and he brought over my favorite game :)

we layed on the couch and talked, watched some videos

went outside and painted and painted inside too ^_^

after i was feeling a little better and the weather was dry, we went to his house to get money then skated over to McDonalds

he got me a McChicken, fries and that new Mocha Frappe

that was soooo GOOD!! you dont even know!!

it gave me a huge brainfreez tho XD

we were still hungry after so we both got cheeseburgers lol

"We're definately going to be fat when we're older" he said lol

we crossed to street and went to the mall

for some reason he feels the need to spend money on me whenever he can haha

i found some shoes i liked & he said he'll get them for me when he mows the grass ^_^

i havent had new shoes in a very long time...

he got me a new shirt at Hot Topic though :) and a bracelet, both HIM branded lol

the shirt is purple and black :) i love it!! its just a little big but it looks good on me :)

we skated outside for a little and i took some pictures of him and the sky

my mom took us out to eat a little after she got home

but we were full from earlier so we just had some root beers...our favorites :D

i've been seeing Nick alot lately and its made me feel alot better in general, nothing is wrong when we're together. Its like the fun of hanging out with a best friend and the joy of being with your lover all at the same time, and its just so perfect to meus. Its exactly what i need. I love the way we can do things like paint together and sing together, its what i've always wanted to do with someone. sometimes he even tells me to start singing, which i like ♥ we can talk about art together, and things we like in videos and be specific, i LOVE that! i've always wanted to be able to have someone to talk about art with and i do :) its so perfect. He's so perfect. And he continues to prove me right on that :)

we dont have to go anywhere like most people do when they hang out, we can just chill. we can just enjoy eachother's presence even sitting outside or on a couch. i really miss him and i just saw him a few hours ago, its crazy. there's so much i could say about him, i could just endlessly list all of the ways he impresses me and is sweet to me and just everything *sigh*

well im off to go dream about him...

goodnight everyone <3

Photography - Another Nice Day in April

i think the first one is quite lovely :)

second was nick's idea, i like it alot ^_^

i love the color of the clouds and the way the trees contrast ♥

Photography - Nicko :)

he let me take pictures of him :)

Photography - Sunsetting

i was driving to downtown and took this on the way

(also, unedited)

so i found out that the only place i can get internet at my house 

is outside!! only outside!!

so i am outside....

not walking, not playing, not going anywhere or skating

im outside blogging...

i have reached of new level of no-lifeness

lol

webcam pictures

took these about a week ago

Pastel Drawing - In The Rain

it was a good day for the most part today :)

i went to Nicks for a while...well the whole day lol

i miss him >.<

something i dont understand...
GIRLS.

never really have anyway...
which is wierd since i am a girl myself, but not really your typical girl

i dont understand the "normal" girls i guess. like the types that get really upset or jealous over really little stuff.
it was like a wierd problem where a girl and her friend like the same guy and none of them are dating and all 3 are friends. girl 1 gets jealous of girl 2 just because the guy is being nice to her i guess?? idk, my friend wasnt doing anything wrong he was just being himself, he's really nice so why would anyone expect him not to be?

i dont get why a guys and girls cant talk to eachother without it being something to get mad over.
flirting with someone is one thing, but just being nice and talking is fine to do.
being nice is good and harmless but flirting can cause problems...

i know that sometimes talking can be misunderstood as flirting sometimes, but this wasnt even one of those times!!
he's just a nice guy who was talking to his friend, it wasnt even bad

this has happened to girl 1 before though...
she thought someone liked her but he was just being himself
once again another nice guy just being his nice guy self

just because a guy is nice to you doesnt always mean he likes you...
same with girls towards guys

i just dont get it -_-


i also think girl 1 was trying to get back at the guy by flirting with someone who wasn't hers if you know what i mean....
and i wasnt very happy about that lol

Happy Late Easter everyone :)

by the way, i have a new camera now!

i also dyed and cut my hair, do u like it?

it was a nice day

Photography - Lunch With Mami