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Saturday, May 28

Poetry - Remember That I Miss You

i'm not sure how long i can control myself,
the patience, the waiting; it's all building up
hiding in me, and soon i'll burst into tears
and cry until i cant take it, but i still take it
because you're worth waiting for,
because we're going to make it

remember how you feel,
how do you feel if you have to wait,
how you'd feel if i made you wait,
why would you do it to me?
when i've waited,
when i've always been here,
when i've been waiting forever
                                   for you,
then you make me wait more,
when you should really be giving me favour
after all that we have been through together,
and how nice i've been, even when you were hurtful,
and how we were always there for eachother,
when you never ignored me for another,

i want those days again

when you were never mean, and always awake,
go out of your way just to see my face
when you were so infatuated with me, that just talking and sitting on my doorstep was enough for you
when you would bring me whatever i want, even if i'm not blue
baby, where are you?
come back, i miss you

and i hope you feel the same,
that if i did this to you, that you would wait for me too,
i have to know, baby...would you? like i do?
because, honey, don't you know,
the way you act makes me wonder so,
sometimes i just have to know,
do you miss me back?
because i can't tell by the way that you act
baby, please come back. . .

because i still don't yet understand,
because you said that i'm your # 1,
then why don't you come with me?
then why don't we go have some fun?

i don't think you know how it feels,
to feel like you don't have much worth,
because someone says that you mean the world,
but you choose everyone over her, and it hurts,
and it stings,
and it burns,
and i yearn -only for you, i tried to let you see
that the only person i want in your eyes, is me
just like you are to me, remember, your kitty?

i love you, you say you love me to
it doesnt matter if you don't feel like it,
why don't you do what i do?
just take it, just for a day,
i promise every time will be okay
and no matter how you feel when you come,
you'll leave with a smile on your face.

Friday, May 27

hiya ^_^

comment me & i'll comment you :) i'm gonna be on like allll day, cuz i am doing online coursework all day. >.< but it will make me pass :) talk to me :D comment my profile or any of my posts, email me [yrrebsa@live.com] or add me on msn and we can talk~!^_^
so i'm supposed to finally go on that date with nick today....hopefully it happens...i've seriously been waiting since november so its almost been half a year =.= i'm starting to kinda get impatient lol
but when i said i still wanna go even if it's thunderstorms he said "me to babe" so i think that means we're going no matter what....i hope...

i wonder how it must feel,

to have a perfect body, a pretty voice
to have perfect hair, and perfect skin
to be smart, to get whatever you want
to rob a bank and not get caught.
to have another summer like summer 2009
to have a summer better than summer 2009
to make every person that hurt me say sorry to my face
to be able to get under people's skin and hurt them on purpose, then not feel guilty about it
to say whatever you want, whenever you want and nobody say anything to you about it
to be in a band and sing whatever i want
to play a 7 string bass guitar
to be a high fashion model
to get married in a garden like my cousin did
to raise a puppy into a nice dog
to be a boy
to play a synthesizer
to graduate from high school
to come to places i'm not welcome and steal the show
to have wide hips
to have natural wavy hair, or light eyes,
to be able to do what i want without my race being looked down upon
to have a big group of friends again
to skate at a skatepark, for the first time since the beginning of the 10th grade
to be bald
to have a job at a store
to have a job as a performer again
to do be able to floor rock break dance
to do a back hand spring again
to be a kindergarten teacher
to be an art teacher
to surf again
to wakeboard and water-ski
to meet HIM & Ville Valo
to meet Parkway Drive, Blessthefall & Escape the Fate, but only to meet Craig...then make blessthefall take him back lol
to be in a screamo band...and scream, again
to play drums like my boyfriend
to wear a pretty corset
to go to Prom
to see what a night club is like, other than in movies
to go on a date downtown
to see a 3D movie
to live in Japan & do Purikura
to ride a Chopper
to have a room mate
to live by myself
to cook on a habachi grill
to see my mom and dad get married
to work for an online store
to be randomly discovered and asked to be on TV
if my blog was famous
if i was a different race
to speak spanish
to be 16 again, but with a liscence
to go to a drive in movie with Nick
be a Greaser like in the outsiders
to live in the 80's and see the young Motley Crue, and all the other bands i love

some times you cant help but wonder about how this stuff would feel, cuz  most of these things would never ever happen without plastic surgery, a time machine or the right friends. i dont have any of those, so lost dreams that will not come true lol oh well... some i want more than others, but its just stuff i wonder about. i think everyone has those types of things

Thursday, May 26

Wisconsin - Part 4 - Shakira :)

the sweetest dog i have ever met :)
maybe even sweeter than bella and lexi (nicks dog and his sister's dog)
she's so cute :) i gave her her own post xD this is shakira :D
idk why ñoño name her that xD

Wisconsin - Part 3 - Bowling!

 we were supposed to go to dave & busters, but it was closed -.- we were all pretty mad lol in the car, we went to this ghetto gas station and ñoño & alex were so funny in the car xD
"there is a twelve year old with dreads smoking a black & mild and a fight right behind our car, carol what the hell are you doing leaving his truck alone? get back in there!" xD he was talking to his sister lol i rode with tehya, ñoño & alex and karen, her cousin, yunyoso and carol in yunyoso's truck.

my sister snapped this stupid picture of me while i was dramaticaly singing to "never gonna give you up" by rick astly xD everyone on my blog just got rickrolled!!! :P sorry xD

ñoño & alex at the bowling alley watching us all bowl
 me and tehya xD sorry unedited and flash  eww D:

 tehya and yunyoso! yunyoso is only his nickname. when we met at the house, i was like "whats your name?" becase i recognized him and didnt know, he said "Alieson" (ah-lee-ay-son) i was like O_o do you have a nickname? he goes "yunyoso" (sounds like june-jo-so) and i was like that didnt help -.- lol
 squeezing the cheek of the mighty cachetes xD i look fat :(
i torture her xD
me, tehya and ñoño ! can you tell we are related xD
i wish xavier would have made it, we look like twins xDD

me and yunyoso, then me and tehya and more of the saez cousins :) i miss them, they were fun :) and i ended the game with a strike :D but most of the time i didnt hit any pins -.- xD
but it was fun i guess. i was in a bad mood most of the time because i missed nick and he was mad that i went :( i tried to cheer up a little, i mean i was with my family and they're awesome too...would have beeen mroe fun with nick though. he would have fit right in with our crazy fun family :)

Wisconsin - Part 2 - Wedding and Reception!

la la la lots of pictures again!!! :PPPP that is my look for the wedding :) hair half back on the side in a clip, got new crystal guages too :) the only edit is the bg and a little exposure, so you can tell, i looked good :) i got that dress for less than twenty dollars at a thrift store! great find right?? and teal is definately my color!! nick suggested :) i love this color, i even had my hair that color before! refer to posts from last summer, you will see :) my mom chose the bolero, i chose the dress and shoes, of course also did my own make up :P i never let anyone touch my face xD thank you nick for that makeup pallet you bought me for christmas!!! i would never have so many color combinations without it :P

the shoes were also thrifted, together the dress and shoes were under 30$, crazy huh? and the shoes are brand name! i got lucky lol

they had musicians at thier wedding :) they were very good :D

the wedding was nice and small, only a few rows and it was an outside wedding at the beautiful botanical gardens :) it was so pretty!! here comes the wedding cast :) i took all the pics in this post btw,
 ñoño and his abuela (saez)
 ñoño and our abuela (Quiñones)
 manuel, ñoño and xaviers parents, victor and madelin - my aunt and uncle

 they are so cute xD she is beautiful :) inside and out!!!
 ñoño and one of the brides maids, i forgot her name @_@ she is a cousin on tio victors side
 i think she has such a cute face xD
 the best man and the last bridesmaid. she's not related, but she looks related :) she fits right in xD

 the ring bearer and one of the flower girls :) more younger cousins ^_^ they are so cute!!!
now the bride herself! her dress was so stunning <3 looks a little like the one i designed for myself :) that is her and her father
 saying thier vows <3

the kis! adorable <33 they are really great together :) you can really tell how much they love eachother. he doesnt leave her side without kissing her and telling her he loves her. you can see the chemistry between them without them even having to exchange words :) i's so beautiful :)

i got my picture taken after the wedding at the reception with the flowers up front :) my dress is a stunner in the sunlight! i hope i get the chance to wear it again....NICK PLEASE TAKE ME TO THE HOMECOMING DANCE NEXT YEAR!!!
 here is me, mami, and all of my aunts. the one in the very back is johanna :) but you call her johanna iris ;D she sells avon so if you need cosmetics hit me up and i'll set you up with her :)

me, tehya and ti ti mayra :) she is the closest to me out of the aunts. we're really open with eachother and she brings out my girly side :P she is very fun and young-spirited ^_^ i love her lots!!
can you guys believe i can walk in those platform heels?! i'm good :) he he. i have muscular calfs >.< i dont like it...i would be fine with it if i had thicker ankles. having on heels makes my legs look better though ^_^ i think...
here are some of the wedding favours :) ti ti madelin made them all
 candy almonds. it says lauren & victor because victor is manuels real name, family only calls him manuel so he doesnt get confused with his father :) manuel is his middle name :)
bubbles :D those were fun xD still havent use them all up lol
 here is my favorite, the chocolate rose lollypop!
 made with white chocolate but colored purple ~~~
 tastes so smooth and amazing! my aunt madelin used to make candy as her personal business, she always has the best foods! i love her cooking :) she made these roses and some mini ones in a box...i ate all mine too quick for a a pic xD
i want another rose D:
we got some pretty awesome appetizers too :)
really good :D i forget what it is :D mmm!!
 bread & butter...my favorite xD
the wedding cake! beautiful cake :) it was pretty awesome too :D too much icing for me though xD
 here is the first part of the meal, raddish salad
 it had a nice vinegarette on it too :) made it really appealing ^_^
and this pretty meal of a chicken! my sister and mom got this~~
and i got this pasta :) yummmm
it was so good i wanted seconds xD 

that. right there. was manuel's. wedding.

and...it was pretty great :) i wish you could see thier true happiness, pictures arent enough to describe <3
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