ｙｅｓｔｅｒｄａｙ ＝ ＜３

ｈｅｌｌｏ　ｍｙ　ｌｏｖｅｓ　～　！ i am in a very good mood :D yesterday i got to hang out with the one and only nicko! it was so much fun :D first great surprise what that when i was walking to his house he skated up to me when i was almost there, which made me sooo happy!! cuz i miss when he used to meet me back when we first started dating. it was sweet <3 i helped him with his homework and he got it done :) then we went outside and i got my board back :) his friend Larry was bothering me to ollie xD they say i'm the only girl they know that can actually skate (as in skateboard) so everytime i'm around he bugs me about it lol. i actual do get a little prideful about it when i think about it. xD his girlfriend was getting jealous though, which made me mad, because she can see us and he's not doing anything -_- then when i ollied she was like "i cant do that" *whine whine whine* ... *jealous jealous*... i just wanted to turn around and be like "i can teach you :D" xD that would have been pretty rude, but if she was gonna be snarky i should have been just as retarded back to her, but i decided not to, since i dont thinnk she knows i heard her say that. but i think larry noticed because he looked at me funny when i turned around for a second. oh well i dont give f@ck xD
afterwards we went to this mexican restaurant called La Pinata and it was amazing! it was such a sweet environment, all the chairs and stuff were handpainted and it really showed off the mexican culture in a nice way without overdoing it. i got this for dinner:

cheesey camaron

it was great! oh my gosh. cheese sauce on jumbo shrimp with mexican rice. then at the end, you can mix up the cheese with the rice and it is soooo amazing. i ate some of the leftovers for breakfast and it was great :) nicko got popcorn chicken. i wish we had gone by ourselves so i could have gotten a better picture xD i'm quite sure his parents would have given me looks if they saw i was doing a photoshoot with my dinner... i don't think nick minds though ^^ since he actually enjoys my blog :P

me and him are supposed to hang out today, hopefully to the mall!! like old times!! :D i hope something happens :) bye everyone! will end in yesterday's pointless vlog:

if you still had guages, we'd so be wearing these ♥

    they are too cute!   

i miss this day ♥

a million different songs come to mind when i think of that summer. i miss it <3 i still dream about it sometimes and i always write about it. because it was the best summer i ever had :)

"we are so young, our lives had just begun, but already we are considering, escape from, this world" -HIM

"i wanna fall in love, with you. this world is only gonna break your heart" -HIM

 "your voice was the soundtrack of my summer, i dont wanna ever love another, you'll always be my thunder" -boyslikegirls

"i feel like a hero, and your my heroine" - boyslikegirls

"so kiss me like you did, my heart stopped beating, such a softer sin" -the used

"i'm melting in your eyes, i lost my place, could stay a while...and i'm melting in your eyes, like my first time, that i caught fire...just stay with me lay with me now" <3

some of our beautiful memories <3

i wish i could sleep aaaaaall day.

i'm sorry i forgot to blog about my desk >.< i took some pics of it but i forgot my memory card at home :( i know, i am early to school...but it is because i ride the bus. school starts at 7:40AM but i get here at 6:50AM Dx blehh! i hate it lol everyone else is waking up at the time i am already on the bus >.<+ ughh.. 

a n y w a y z , 

NICKO BABY! good luck on your tests! i know you think today is going to be horrible and that you're going to have a bad day, but i'll make up for it baby and i'll do my best to cheer you up! i love you more than anything hunnybunny! you're adorable and sweet just please start trying harder! there's not too much time left for school.. even though i know you don't want to, you should use the time you have after school since you don't go home yet and try to do some extra credit. i' sorry i kinda scolded you this morning :( you have  2  parents i know you dont want another...i try not to bother you but i do want you to pass, i try to leave you alone about it though... just try really hard to do good :( i dont wanna see any mean upset posts today! try to think about happy things and blog about those, don't make the day any more bad than it is already. you're always here for me, i'm here for you too remember :) you're my best friend :) <3


it is early release day tomaro and i forgot >.< now i gotta find a ride home and get my key >.< unless the bus is coming...then maybe i can get myself a coffee or something and chill and watch some anime when i get home. and surprisingly maybe clean some more o_o i have been in a cleaning mood ever since nicko got me my desk. it just makes me wanna make my room look cute ^_^


and me and nick are gonna get motorcycles :3  i am super excited about that!! he wants a streetbike, a ninja 6r i think? and i want a oldschool bike :) i'm more into the classics. here some that i like

yamaha v star 950

yamaha RZ 250 (1980 standard)

1960 harley-davidson panhead <333

smexy xD its so shiny!!

1969 Harley-Davidson XI <33333333

i love choppers ahh! <33

i love oldschool bikes. i just like the way they're made and sound. it's like there's nothing cooler to me than a classic bike. i mean you have to admit they look cool?! i like bikes with 1 headlight and dual exhaust also. and i cant help it for some reason, but i dont like electric spedometers on bikes. i dont know why. i think they're so cool in cars, but so wierd in bikes o_o idk. electric radio would be cool though ^^ i cant wait to be riding around with my boy :) it'll be so much fun ^^ not sure about letting our kids ride though...i wanna car for that (;

i think that is all for now,

xxaerixx

Poem - Everything Will Be Alright

a poem dedicated to all of the old friends that hurt me and think they need me back in thier life. you're all better off without me. this is for all of you. sort of a nice way of saying forget about me.


No matter what you think
No matter what you write
No matter how you see it,
Everything's gonna be alright.

You know you're not hated
You know you're still just young
You know right now you're jaded
that doesnt mean your days are done.

No matter how you hate it
No matter how hard you fight
No matter where you go,
Everything's gonna be alright.

You know you're not a bad person
You also know that you're not grown
You know i still understand you,
and i know you want that known.

No matter what you've loved and lost
No matter if you cant stand the sight
No matter if we're friends or not,
Everything's gonna be alright.

You know we can't be friends,
You know you'll have a better one than me.
You know i would still be happy for you,
so you should still be happy for me.

No matter what you've loved and lost

No matter if you cant stand the sight

No matter if we're friends or not,

Everything's gonna be alright.

Don't worry, it'll be alright.

blah blah blah

おはようございます~! 退屈だ~~ nothing much to do today, just school...boringggg >.< i already wanna go home. and i am doing homework in my free bell at the moment because i lost my notebook when i was cleaning my room last night >.< wanna know why i cleaned it? nicko got me a new desk! it is my first gift from my future grandma-in-law :) it's a pretty wooden desk and fits perfect in my room~~ it has  drawers and i already sorted them. now the rest of my room is getting cleaner...new furniture is always motivation :) but hopefully i will have a job soon so i can move out...i am annoyed with my family >.< maybe if i like my room more then i wont be so hasty. i am still upset about all of my artwork but im just gonna ignore it and act like i never liked art in the first place. i'm scared that if i keep liking art that it will only let me down in the end. and i am tired of being let down..
i miss nicko :( he was over for a little bit yesterday to bring in my desk from the truck to my room. i thought he would be proud that i was cleaning my room but he said it still looked a mess >.< i havent seen my floor in like 2 years what do you mean! :( i think it looks better...its not like i'm done yet xD i'm trying to start organizing and stuff or whatever...
all i can think about right now is how bad i have to pee :( i had a blog topic a minute ago but i have the sudden urge to go to the bathroom >.< and the teacher wont let anyone go D: wahhh save me! someone fly me to thier house and let me use thier potty :[ i dont wanna wait 20 minutes till next block ahh D:

and does anyone know how to lose fat on your arms without getting too much muscle? my arms are getting a little thicker at the top and it is starting to bug me D: even though i dont think anyone has noticed but me (now everyones gonna be looking -_-) i dont care about my legs or my butt or tummy , those are fine...i just want my arms to be thin. i always thought skinny arms were prettyer. if you have any advice just let me know ^^