Thanks Nicko :)

he took these 2 pictures up at UC at his sister's lacrosse game

he said the first one reminds him of a japanese school girl ^_^

[click to enlarge]

new HIM shirt :)

thank you Nicko baby :)

he got me a bracelet too. and i got to see him today ^_^

tomoro im gonna finally go see him play soccer!!

Songs Left Unexplained #4 - Scared to Death

a newer song i have been thinking about lately

it's called "scared to death" by the band HIM off of thier new albun Screamworks

the entire album is beautiful, i definately recomend it :)

In the biblical sense and sensibility
let me know you
I'll kiss that smile off your face
just say when


I'm not afraid to say 'I love you'
any more than I used to be, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love


All these people blast from hell
ice break is infernal
from a heart so black and blue
only for you


(just say when, again)


I'm not afraid to say 'I love you'
any more than I used to be, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love
with you


I'm not afraid to say 'I love you'
any more than I used to be, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love


I'm not afraid to admit I adore you
any more than I was before, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love
with you


with you...


scared to death...


I'm scared to death..


And you're sweet like poison...




now with my input...


In the biblical sense and sensibility
let me know you
I'll kiss that smile off your face
just say when
usually the phrase "i'll kiss that smile off your face" wouldnt mean anything good, but i think about it in a different way.  to me, i think of it as just kissing them passionately, because most people dont always smile when they kiss that way. "in the biblical sense and sensibility let me know you" means, since alot of people say the Bible is the truth, that he wants to you in the truest way. and since God is the most caring and loving person then in sensibility he may mean he wants to be sweet to them 


I'm not afraid to say 'I love you'
any more than I used to be, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love
first two lines -i was terrified to tell nick i loved him for the first time...honestly i was..it was scary, just that fear that he may not feel the same or wont say it back or wouldnt talk to me again...i was scared. but it's a now or never moment..if i hadnt said it then i may have never gotten the chance again and would have regretted it so i did it. "i am scared to death to fall in love" because it is scary. i am very much in love, but im always still falling in love with him. i never stop falling, and its still scary but a good scary. its okay to be scared sometimes. its one of those scary's that are like "wow...this great thing is happening to..me?" realizations without the worry that it wont be said back. true love is a truely beautiful thing


All these people blast from hell
ice break is infernal
from a heart so black and blue
only for you
"all these people blast from hell" would represent all of the people who have ever hurt me, im not the most well liked person so i have been made fun of and called names alot through my life but "from a heart so black and blue, only for you" just shows that he is the only one who has the power to heal my heart and make me forget my problems and hurts


(just say when, again)


(chorus x2)

 I'm not afraid to admit I adore you
any more than I was before, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love
with you


with you...


scared to death...


I'm scared to death..


And you're sweet like poison...

Photography - Tehya With Tea

sick today T-T

no sad face really though...today was very good :)

i was sick so i stayed home from school

i told Nicko and he wanted to take care of me and make me feel better

so he came over to my house, walking on a hurt ankle...

he would have skated but it was wet outside

and he brought over my favorite game :)

we layed on the couch and talked, watched some videos

went outside and painted and painted inside too ^_^

after i was feeling a little better and the weather was dry, we went to his house to get money then skated over to McDonalds

he got me a McChicken, fries and that new Mocha Frappe

that was soooo GOOD!! you dont even know!!

it gave me a huge brainfreez tho XD

we were still hungry after so we both got cheeseburgers lol

"We're definately going to be fat when we're older" he said lol

we crossed to street and went to the mall

for some reason he feels the need to spend money on me whenever he can haha

i found some shoes i liked & he said he'll get them for me when he mows the grass ^_^

i havent had new shoes in a very long time...

he got me a new shirt at Hot Topic though :) and a bracelet, both HIM branded lol

the shirt is purple and black :) i love it!! its just a little big but it looks good on me :)

we skated outside for a little and i took some pictures of him and the sky

my mom took us out to eat a little after she got home

but we were full from earlier so we just had some root beers...our favorites :D

i've been seeing Nick alot lately and its made me feel alot better in general, nothing is wrong when we're together. Its like the fun of hanging out with a best friend and the joy of being with your lover all at the same time, and its just so perfect to meus. Its exactly what i need. I love the way we can do things like paint together and sing together, its what i've always wanted to do with someone. sometimes he even tells me to start singing, which i like ♥ we can talk about art together, and things we like in videos and be specific, i LOVE that! i've always wanted to be able to have someone to talk about art with and i do :) its so perfect. He's so perfect. And he continues to prove me right on that :)

we dont have to go anywhere like most people do when they hang out, we can just chill. we can just enjoy eachother's presence even sitting outside or on a couch. i really miss him and i just saw him a few hours ago, its crazy. there's so much i could say about him, i could just endlessly list all of the ways he impresses me and is sweet to me and just everything *sigh*

well im off to go dream about him...

goodnight everyone <3

Photography - Another Nice Day in April

i think the first one is quite lovely :)

second was nick's idea, i like it alot ^_^

i love the color of the clouds and the way the trees contrast ♥

Photography - Nicko :)

he let me take pictures of him :)

Photography - Sunsetting

i was driving to downtown and took this on the way

(also, unedited)

so i found out that the only place i can get internet at my house 

is outside!! only outside!!

so i am outside....

not walking, not playing, not going anywhere or skating

im outside blogging...

i have reached of new level of no-lifeness

lol

webcam pictures

took these about a week ago

Pastel Drawing - In The Rain

it was a good day for the most part today :)

i went to Nicks for a while...well the whole day lol

i miss him >.<

something i dont understand...
GIRLS.

never really have anyway...
which is wierd since i am a girl myself, but not really your typical girl

i dont understand the "normal" girls i guess. like the types that get really upset or jealous over really little stuff.
it was like a wierd problem where a girl and her friend like the same guy and none of them are dating and all 3 are friends. girl 1 gets jealous of girl 2 just because the guy is being nice to her i guess?? idk, my friend wasnt doing anything wrong he was just being himself, he's really nice so why would anyone expect him not to be?

i dont get why a guys and girls cant talk to eachother without it being something to get mad over.
flirting with someone is one thing, but just being nice and talking is fine to do.
being nice is good and harmless but flirting can cause problems...

i know that sometimes talking can be misunderstood as flirting sometimes, but this wasnt even one of those times!!
he's just a nice guy who was talking to his friend, it wasnt even bad

this has happened to girl 1 before though...
she thought someone liked her but he was just being himself
once again another nice guy just being his nice guy self

just because a guy is nice to you doesnt always mean he likes you...
same with girls towards guys

i just dont get it -_-


i also think girl 1 was trying to get back at the guy by flirting with someone who wasn't hers if you know what i mean....
and i wasnt very happy about that lol

Happy Late Easter everyone :)

by the way, i have a new camera now!

i also dyed and cut my hair, do u like it?

it was a nice day

Photography - Lunch With Mami