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Saturday, December 18

:D this is cute haha

happy birthday nicko :D


it's nick's birthday ^_^

i took this when he wasnt looking...
but he caught me xD
my baby's birthday is today :) he said he hates his birthday though...i don't really know why but he does. i didn't want him to have a miserable day though :( i wanted him to have a good day ^_^
so i did something super cute!
i made him heart-shaped pancakes~
they were pink ^_^ then put red sugar sprinkles on top to decorate~
i put my laptop and some syrup in my bag
and got to his house at 9AM...
he looked so surprised when i got there and so happy!
his face was red for a second and made me really happy :)
i stayed over for a little and we took some pictures on webcam~

i love that last pic <333 my new fav =)

and you know how i said if i saw him yesterday my day would be perfect??
i saw him yesterday ^_^
he's so cute! more pictures!
these are actually screenshots from a video i made that i'll upload very soon to my vlog :)




i love us <33 we're so silly~
we're supposed to eat at the chinese buffet today too :)
can't wait!! ttyl ♥

Friday, December 17

i am having a great day :D

the orchestra concert went very well! i actually liked it 
they did Carol Of The Bells and then the Show Choir preformed and did great 
props to all of you guys 

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today in FMP, my day was made :)
one of the students i mentor, her name is Kristen, gave me a Christmas card!
right when i came into class she handed to me
my reaction:  ...for me?
she nodded  it made me really happy
i got a rice crispie too :) one of my favorites 
it really made my day better that someone actually thought of me..
sometimes i cant really tell the impact i make on people until they show me,
and then i feel really special :)

Kristen, if you read this, thank you so much!!!

now if i actually get up the courage to go to nick's then my day will be perfect ^_^
gonna go try to doodle now, ttyl ♥

m o w ?

quick note* my blog can now be viewed mobile!
kinda in a down-sh mood at the moment 
i had 4 different bad dreams @_@ so i was not happy at all 
2 pissed me off, then the other 2 made me sad
and they went in a checkered pattern...
i woke up super stressed and sad and didn't feel like going to school + feeling sick
blehhh (berry does not approve!!)
 but nicko cheered me up 
just a "hey baby" in the morning can cheer me up a whole day
crazy right? ♥
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random edit inspired by Love Like Winter by AFI
that song is awesome i have always loved it ♥
well an update on the modelling thing, i got in!
the bad new...it costs alot.
you know how i talked about that i was going to start dance again and that my cell gets turned off after this month?
well paying for a cell phone, 12 dance classes +bus fare costs LESS than one month of modelling classes!
which is a lot :( i would have to choose between cell, dance and sometimes lunch/breakfast OR modelling.
i choose dance.
i know i want to model soooooo bad :( but i cant do it...
with no phone, me and nick would have a hard time together...
my family is already low on money and i don't have a job yet,
and i love dance, always have and i already know i'm good at that
i don't know if modelling would be good for me or take me anywhere, so i don't want to put in money i don't really have and risk my relationship over something i might not even be able to pursue.
if i had a job, i would try it out because i would be able to help pay
so maybe i'll try again when i get one and see how it goes...
but for now, i'm gonna start dance and get a new phone at the end of the month
that is what i need right now.
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such angry thoughts right now >_<
i just figured out how much i hate that girl i'm jealous of!!,
because when i think about it, even when she's not being mentioned she's still causing a problem
because in one of nick's recent posts i was re-reading, he talks about past situations that bother him
which is what starts our arguments...
i don't do anything wrong, but because of something SHE did before, he gets mad at ME!
which makes me want to wish her death -_______-+
it really makes me sad that i'm good girlfriend and i know i am, but he still thinks about the past problems that i have nothing to do with and like...thinks i'm going to do the same thing
i love you Nick stop thinking about what she did and know that you have no worries with me.
because i will treat you like the beautiful person you are and you know i wont do anything to ruin that.
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today there is an orchestra concert during school
i don't wanna go :/ i don't really like the songs they play...
i love classical music (i definately blame ballet for that one)
but i hate that they play the same songs every year -_-
i get bored so fast with that...you know?
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ugh i am so bored and sick @_@
i feel like i'm gonna throw up on everything
blehh...once again i do not approve!
but i don't wanna go home cuz then i cant leave today
and i'm gonna go attack nick at his house xD
whether he wants me to or not because i havent seen him in god damn month!!!!
and i miss him  alot 
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i really need to make some dividers, these dashes just aint doin it!!!
.....well i'm gonna go throw up now haha
i'll blog again later when i doodle again ^_^'
heh heh... well... see ya :D
*pukes everywhere*

i cant wait till our oldschool date ♥

Thursday, December 16

❄ ❅ s n o w d a y ❅ ❄

today we are off school....bout a half foot of snow on the ground and still snowin a ltitle bit still ~
was on the phone talking with Nicko earlier 
he's a cutieee  and his voice makes me happy 
all i've been doing today:
 playing sims
 eating pizza rolls
 talking to nick
 singing / listening to music
 being really cold 
i also posted some of my [ugly] baby pics earlier xD
but pretty please don't laugh at my uglyness~
i was fat and looked like a boy 
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lately i've been wanting to create my own blogskin...
i really want a 3 column layout >_>
i'm so scared to chang my layout though cuz i've had the same one since i started 
mehh...i dont know >_> i'm scared.... i might get it though...

gosh that song has been so stuck in my head!!
Boomshake by Far East Movement...ahhh i love it 
my favorite song by them~

last night i found out nick took my beefee quiz 
he got everything right [wink.PNG] ya baby 
i knew he would get it right tho :P
i think 2 other people have taken it now, one person didn't leave thier name 
i was vewy sad  *sniff sniff* lol
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theme song of the day:

- j a h a n e -
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