EVERYTHING makes sense now!

For a long time, i've been wondering...

why has everything that has happened in my life happened?

after 8 and a half years of contemplating the answer is finally clear to me,

everything that has happened in my life has led up to me meeting this boy.

there is no possible way i would have ever imagined that this was the reason,

something so magnificently spectacular happening to me, me!

So it goes like this...

(i'll start at the beginning and work my way through.)

—Back when i was about 4 and my sister was a baby, my mom packed all of our stuff and told me we were going on vacation to grandma's house. Of course, i believed her. We ended up living with my grandma until i was 8, then i found out something...

—Summer of 2nd grade, around July, i was 8 and my sister was 4. My mom says "we're moving to a new house" i asked my mother, "well, when are we going back to Fort Campbelle from vacation?" she told me we weren't on vacation. i asked "well, when is Papi getting here?" she said he wasn't going to live with us. I was confused. She told me she had divorced my dad. I was in shock. My mom lied to me.

—After getting used to the house, i had made a strong friendship with my neighbor Alix (we are still best friends to this day.) In 5th grade my school closed. I ended up going to another Christian school called Eden Grove Academy, it was completely and horribly miserable. thier curriculum was a grade and a half over the curriculum of my previous school so i failed...again. By the time 7th grade came around, my mom was convinced i could go to the public school and Alix & Devin were my only friends, i had class with Devin but he sat across the room and Alix was in a totally different class.

—The first friend i made in a public school was Marquis. I ended up sitting across from him at lunch just looking for an open seat, since i really didn't know anybody. He got my attention by saying he wanted to put his beef in a girl's taco...i thought he was hilarious! he's like a big brother to me.

—One day around Halloween i went to a dance at school with my friends Alix and Kayla, that day my classmate and friend Sydney introduced me to Hannah. By spring, we were running track together and we have so much in common we call ourselves twins, even now, that was almost 4 years ago...i cant believe it.

—8th grade, i officially met Nick. My friend Kayla had a huge crush on him the year before and i thought he was cute, he was Marquis' best friend so we ended up seeing each other alot. and we had to sit next to eachother almost all year in almost every class. i ended up really liking him then since the summer of 8th grade, after all those rocks he threw at my head, we ended up going out. it was a really quiet relationship but everyone knew. we wouldnt even touch eachother and barely talked, but it was the best thing ever to me. he was my first love. after a year, we finally hugged. a few days later was my first kiss which was with him. we were off and on until around the beginning of last school year then...

—"Never again" the words hit me like a brick. he had broke up with me for good. 2 weeks later, because i knew i wouldn't get him back, i started dating my best friend Pete. We had been close friends for about a year and i really liked him. After we'd been dating only a month and a half he told me he loved me...i was a little scared but i said it back and meant it after i thought about it. I trusted him to take care of my heart, but eventually he broke it. After 7 and a half months of us dating, he said he didn't want us to hate eachother over anything and didn't want to lose me as a friend. it would have torn me apart...would have.

—As i've said before, on Pete's birthday while we were still together, his friend brought a bunch of people to skate up at a school with our friend Brett. That was the first day i saw Nicko...on the last day of school he found me and asked me if i remembered him and got my number. It was like an instant friendship. Next day, Pete dumps me. Nicko cheers me up then we hang out that Monday. 2 weeks later i was already in love, we both were. "Its like being infatuated with your best friend," as i said about love. We started goin out.

—After many memories, text messages, hugs, kisses and phone calls, we came to a revelation. We are the right people for eachother. We're both so happy, we've never been so happy in our lives! The people at my church and my friends and family are all so surprised, they said they'd never seen me this happy before, thats because i've never been this happy before!

i'm finally realizing why everything in my life has happened

in perfect sequence, everything has led up to him and i meeting

even after my mom lyring and the heartbreaks,

finally,

the one person

who truly gets me.

the one person

who's just like me.

the one person

who wont judge me.

the one person

who thinks im perfect,

who thinks im pretty,

who thinks im the right one

finally,

the one person

who loves me for me

me meeting him has got to be why all this has happened,

it just makes so much sense

for once, everything makes sense