i have changed...

something that alot of people say about me is that

i have never changed

there are people who met me a long time ago

who said im the same as i used to be when they met me

i know im not much different but i have changed

but only in the past few months

i didnt notice until Nicko told me yesterday.

when Nick met me, i was sad,

yes, i had just gotten dumped by a boyfriend

but even so i wasnt really a "happy" person

i looked more on the negative side of things

because that was all i could see

but Nick changed that

he tried his hardest to make me happy

even just the first time we ever hung out together

and from that day forward

now i have a more positive outlook on life

because i can see positive things

i always thought i would end up alone,

i thought marriage was a joke and never wanted children

now i want to get married and have children

i didnt care about school or grades and just wanted to drop out

now i have all A's and i get excited about getting good grades

and anxious to go to college

i used to give up on things easily and sulk about it

now i am determined and fight to keep myself from it

i used to be so shy that i would barely talk to anyone new

now Nick introduces me to his friends and takes me to dances and parties

and i actually talk to people and laugh loud

i used to not feel comfortable around people

but now i dont mind anyone

i thought all hope was gone

but now all i do is hope

everyone says you shouldnt let people change you

and to only stay true to yourself.

but if i hadnt let him change me where would i be now?

i could be in a mental hospital,

i could be trapped in my mind,

i could be lost..

i could even be dead

when people say to not let anyone change you

i think they forget that there is good changes too

i am still me, but i have changed

what changed?

 the difference about me,

is that i am

happy.

i became happy by letting my life fall into the hands of someone who loves me,

and now look at me:

i am happy

i am positive

i am hopeful

i am less shy

i am determined

i am STILL HERE.

thank you so much Nicko

you are the best friend and boyfriend anyone could ever ask for

you mean the world to me and i love you with all of my heart

thank you for making me the happy person i am now,

i owe you so much...♥