Overwhelmed...

i've got so much going on right now its so overwhelming...every two seconds i feel like i'm going to burst into tears and im always holding them back. alot of people keep asking me if i'm ok, i want to say does it look like i am? i get so tired of being asked that so i just say i'm fine. there are some people who are trying to make me happy but nothing is really helping...i wish it was and i thank them for their efforts, i really do appreciate it <3 it's just that sometimes there is almost nothing anyone can do...

i wish i could just go for a long walk in the night.
i wish i could just lay down and cuddle and watch movies wrapped in a warm blanket.
i wish i could just go get one of those caramel lattes from Panera and sit there and talk.
i wish i could just pour my heart out and cry on someone's shoulder.
i wish i could just have one day where i was just happy, at least for a few hours.
i wish i could just lay in the grass and stare at the stars one night.
i wish i could just get a good surprise for once...