hardest thing in the world.

i hate this month.. i just wanna skip over it.. i'm so serious

i dont want wednesday to come.. and i dont want thursday to come..

i can't concentrate and i have to do a monologue on next monday

November 22 -my unlucky day.

i'm not going to make it in the school play 

i wont be able to memorize the part i'm supposed to read

i cant do it.. it's too much..

there's only one audition day. i'm not even going to try out..

and this morning me and nick had a fight.. and last night we had a fight.. mean words exchanged... i wont get into detail but as you can tell by my post from the middle of the night last night, i was really shook up.

he was sweet and tried to cheer me up after it, because he's sweet and he doesnt want to fight with me... but i cant help but be upset after we fight...because we never fight.

i almost said something i really would have regretted :( i just want to hide in a hole...

but i cant do that... hiding wont help anything... we have to stick together and make it work but i didnt know how hard this would be :(

i need all my friends right now

just pray for my mom and me & nick and my family

we need it..