800th post! wow.

i've had this blog for a meer year and a half maybe, and this is my 800th post!

i have so many art and writings on here, that is the majority of my posts. i have over 100 poems on here and over 59 photography shots. crazy right?
here are some pics from today, i got new shoes!

arent they cute? i love them!

i was on the phone with nick that whole time xD dont think he kenw i was taking pics
he was talking to his friend Ben on xbox so wasnt paying attention i guess lol

in honor of the large number f this post...i will post 100 truths for you guys :)

thanks for following me!!

1. i have 4 names in all.
2. i have a sibling i have never met.
3. before i met my boyfriend, i didn't believe in families and never wanted to get married, but now i want both very badly.
4. before i met my boyfriend, i did not want to finish high school or go to college, but now i am going to do both.
5. my boyfriend said i am not allowed to marry him if i do not go to college. so i am going to college and so is he.
6. i want to visit Helsinki, Tokyo, Stokholm, Paris and Warsaw before i die.
7. after i get married, me and Nick want to move to Taiwan.
8. i don't smile as much as i should.
9. i still have my tan from summer.
10. Brooklyn, New York is my favorite place to be.
11. i have a wierd obsession with eyes.
12. my emotions overwhelm me all the time, no matter which one...both positive and negative emotions.
13. i honestly never thought i would live to be this old.
14. i wish i was famous, that people wanted to know about me and interview me and things
15. i am too forgiving, and it has now caused me some very very upsetting trust issues.
16. i have very very low self-esteem.
17. i have a dinosaur named Stewie who needs a date to the ball.
18. i hate talking to myself, so i don't think out loud.
19. i forgot about my homework until just now.
20. i have drank 4 cups of hot chocolate, 7 cups of rootbeer, ate half a bag of doritos and consumed 13 ice cubes today + a microwave pizza.
21. i am very confused right now.
22. i have an email pen pal :)
23. i have a head band in almost every color, but i rarely wear them.
24. i almost always straighten my hair because i hate when it is curly.
25. when i was little, i wished i was Pocahontas off the movie. then when i saw a painting of the real Pocahontas, i wanted to be Jasmine from Alladin, because the real Pocahontas didn't look like me.
26. i solely embraced my Native American heritage until i discovered how much i loved being Puerto Rican.
27. I hate the French language.
28. I think Finnish should be the romance language instead of French, i think it sounds much prettier. and takes more effort to learn, which shows passion.
29. i like it when Nick kisses my earlobe. don't ask why, i just like it ^_^
30. i am too patient with certain people.
31. i like 80's and 90's music better than the music now.
32. i am very upset at this moment, but i cant talk to anyone about it. because i refuse to talk to one of the people, and the other will get mad at me. so i have to mope... which upsets me more.
33. i bought new shoes today.
34. i like the color sea green.
35. i enjoy all pale or blueish shades of green.
36. my favorite color is purple.
37. i found myself when i was 10 years old.
38. i have had the same personality my whole life and my interests have been nearly the same as well.
39. i have never felt accepted anywhere.
40. i am always thinking about something, and it is usually not good.
41. i forget things alot and it makes me feel stupid.
42. i was convinced for a long time that i really was dumb and had no purpose.
43. i'm feelin so fly like a G6 ;D
44. i just passed gas...
45. the first blog i ever followed was Sweetmangodesigns.com
46. my first blog friend was Rabbito.
47. i feel sick to my stomach right now.
48. i really need a job.
49. i want to start dancing again. desperately.
50. i am tired of being talked to by people at school i want to be left alone.
51. i fear that i might be too shut in.
52. i love matte eyeshadow.
53. i love to curl my lashes and put on lots of mascara.
54. i'm almost never tired.
55. i have really bad insomnia.
56. i've wanted to be an artist since i was 4.
57. i can speak very basic japanese.
58. i always wanted to live in Japan.
59. Asian food is my favorite.
60. i have been interested in Japanese culture before i was into anime.
61. i want to gauge my ears to 00.
62. i ran into someone i hate today.
63. i saw the girl i am jealous of in person today for the first time.
64. i want snake bites.
65. i want to pierce my nose and eyebrows.
66. the first tattoo i will get is going to be on my writ and i designed it myself.
67. everyone says i am thier truest friend.
68. everyone betrays me and i don't know why.
69. i want to publish a book of all my poems.
70. i want to design clothes and make them.
71. i hate being poor.
72. i love food and i love to eat.
73. i hate that it is so hard for me to gain weight.
74. i am tired of holding in my feelings.
75. i have an evil side that i am trying not to let rear its head out, but its getting harder.
76. i am tired of having to let people go, but i am tired of being let down.
77. i have bad dreams alot.
78. i think sleep is a waste of time.
79. i wish i liked myself as much as nick likes me.
80. i complain alot apparently...but i don't mean too. i think i just have a whiney voice and i wonder too many things.
81. i am afraid of thunderstorms.
82. i am generally scared of people.
83. i am afraid of making eye contact with people.
84. i hate the cold.
85. i love to draw.
86. i wish my sister was more like me.
87. when i asked God for a sister, i should have asked for a best friend.
88. i am a pessimist, but i didn't used to be.
89. i feel hopeless alot.
90. my most common feeling is worthlessness.
91. i love watches, but i never wear them.
92. for some reason, i am still jealous of that girl.
93. right now, i cant get her off my mind and i am upset about it.
94. i want to be okay.
95. i am very thoughtful and nice by nature, but certain things can turn me hateful in an instant.
96. i hate that i am nice to the people i hate.
97. sometimes i wish i had the guts to rip someones heart out for hurting me.
98. i love Nick more than anything.
99. i wish that all my wishes woulld come true one day.
100. i love rain in Indian Summer.

here was my vlog for today